Where am I to go now that I've gone too far?

Snow running is very taxing. Will run shorter distances if there is snow on the ground. It's when it turns to crusty, lumpy ice that things get dangerous. Not sure how I will manage the winter. Climate change may make it an unnecessary worry, I guess. 

Not running ever day is a good thing. Running every other day is also a good thing.

Distance: 3.1 miles

Duration: 32:50
Pace: 10:34

Route: Forest Hill Loop

Temperature: 36°
Climate: overcast & cool

Pavement: clear & damp with patchy snow
Mood: HAHAHAHAHAHA

1982 Playlist

I Don't Care Anymore - Phil Collins

Radio Silence - Thomas Dolby

Town Called Malice - The Jam

Hold Me - Fleetwood Mac

Twilight Zone - Golden Earring

I'm So Excited - The Pointer Sisters

That's Good - Devo

New World Man - Rush

What was 1982? Had my first break up. Started high school. Got my first computer, an Apple II+. Was terrified to dance. 

 
Stretches: yes
Abdominals: 120 sec.
Water: yes

I can feel my lifetime piling up.

Being overweight is not good. If I was just big and happy, that would be one thing. I don't like the sighing I do when I have taken the stairs. Or the sudden sighs I do, out of nowhere. I know weight and activity are not necessarily related. I can exercise and be big. But as I age, I worry about additional taxation on my heart.

These are the things I worry about. And yet, I am also trying not to diet. I want to be, you know, Mindful. That's what the kids say, right? Mindful.

Distance: 2.25 miles

Duration: 25:28
Pace: 11:18

Route: Horizon Loop (clockwise)

Temperature: 31°
Climate: snowy
Mood: oh-ho, yeah. you bet.

1992 Playlist

So What'Cha Want - Beastie Boys

If I Can't Change Your Mind - Sugat

Girlfriend - Matthew Sweet

Lifetime Piling Up - Talking Heads

Helpless - Sugar

Model - Balanescu Quartet

Sleeping Satellite - Tasmin Archer

What was 1992? Playing Joseph Merrick. Working for Karamu. Living off Coventry. Starting my first theater company. Getting married for the first time. 

 
Stretches: yes
Abdominals: 120 sec.
Water: yes

The overgrown super shit.

This time, it's back pain. A pain by my right shoulder blade, caused by stress and anxiety, and I suppose, a lack of regular exercise. It's been a while since I have been stressed like this, and I wonder if it is due to the fact that I have stopped taking Zoloft. I was sidelined by this pain for most of the week.

Distance: 3.1 miles

Duration: 32:58
Pace: 10:38

Route: Forest Hill Loop

Temperature: 34°
Climate: dusk, cool
Mood: all right

 

2002 Playlist

My Baby's Taking Me Home - Sparks

Lessons Learned From Rocky I to Rocky III - Cornershop

Must Be Dreaming - Frou Frou

Smile - Telepopmusik

Freeek! - George Michael

Die Another Day - Madonna

Spectral Mornings - Cornershop

What was 2002? Still in mourning. End of my first year as an actor-teacher. A return visit to NYC following 9/11. Expecting a new baby. My wife concentrating on her first Masters degree.

 
Stretches: yes
Abdominals: 90 sec.
Water: yes

By the way, I have resumed taking Zoloft. It makes a difference.

You're insecure.

First night after the first run was brutal. Pain in both shoulders. Sleeping on my side has become an issue in my life, ever since I had to sleep exclusively on my right for weeks due to my eye surgery. My legs, my ankles. But not my heart, not my breathing. I should have had more water after that run, that is a fact, I woke in the middle of the night in pain and parched. At least I could get up and drink a glass of water.

But here we are, two weeks later, thinking about running, but not doing it. You know what's really frustrating (and one reason why I procrastinate) is not being able to cobble together complete running kit, once I have decided to actually run.

Today, the elastic band in not one but two pair of long underwear came apart in my hands. Fifteen year old long underwear. Time for new long underwear.

Distance: 2.35 miles

Duration: 26:01
Pace: 11:04

Route: Horizon Loop

Temperature: 41°
Climate: sunny, cool
Mood: enduring

What was 2012? My first Agatha Christie play and also my first publication. I wrote Double Heart in three weeks. The kids were both in elementary school, the wife, I think, at Preterm. It was very important for Obama to win reelection, and he did.

2012 Playlist

Sweet Nothing - Calvin Harris ft. Florence Welch

Locked Out of Heaven - Bruno Mars

Call Me Maybe - Carly Rae Jepsen

Feel So Close - Calvin Harris

Sex - The 1975

Bubblegum Bitch - Marina

What Makes You Beautiful - One Direction

We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together - Taylor Swift

Wide Awake - Katy Perry

 
Stretches: yes
Abdominals: 60 sec. (1x)
Water: yes

Man. Didn't even need long pants. Jesus.

All these years I've been running from my fears.

So this is the New Year. And I don't feel any different? Actually, I do feel very, very different. My health has been affected during the past twelve months. Is that a reason I have not been running? Or an excuse? Who cares?

Yes, I have been a little winded recently, but then we spent an extended weekend in NYC, walking for miles a day, and I felt great. So, can I keep up some kind of exercise regime -- any exercise regime -- through the winter months? So many questions.

Here we go ... 57 Playlists for 57 Years.

2022 Playlist

Here To Forever * - Death Cab For Cutie

Cracker Island - Gorillaz ft. Thundercat

So Typically Now - U.S. Girls

Tonight - Phoenix ft. Ezra Koenig

Shatter * - Maggie Rogers

Down - Hot Chip

2am - Foals

Get Inspired * - Genesis Owusu

Edge of the Edge - Panda Bear, Sonic Boom

Break My Soul - Beyoncé

What was 2022? My last year of grad school. When we started ignoring the pandemic, oh and I got Covid. My retina detached. My wife was loving her work, my son chose jazz and our eldest exploded as an artist. 

Distance: 3.1 miles

Duration: 32:12
Pace: 10:23

Route: Boulevard Loop

Temperature: 59°
Climate: damp, you know?
Mood: surprisingly decent

 
Stretches: yes
Abdominals: 30 sec. (6x)
Water: yes