Time to get real.

Right here, right now.

Alas, no more runs in August than in July. This time, due to illness.

COVID-19, bout two.

Tuesday (August 26): Thought I had allergies: tickle in the the throat, watery eyes

Wednesday: Following a horrid night's sleep (woke dozens of times) tested positive. Headache all day, pain across the eyes, cough, woozy, slept on and off all day, watched a lot of TV.

Thursday: Night sweats but an excellent night's sleep. Woke once or twice, sore throat, no head pain. Bit dizzy. Slight cough. And sputum, which is always rewarding.

Friday: Difficult night, coughs and pained throat. Active during the day, working remotely, taking calls. Sore throat much preferable to head or body aches, feeling grateful. 

Saturday: Still testing positive. Good night's sleep. Haven't had a fever since Wednesday. Minor sore throat, little cough. 

Sunday: Spouse in the throes, kept me awake most of the night. Otherwise, mildly stuffed up, high feeling in my chest.

Monday: Ears stuffed, throwing off my equilibrium. high feeling in chest.

The question is, should I run? Rehearsals resume tomorrow. Will exercise wipe me out ... or help clear my system? I have been resting for nearly a week and it's driving me to distraction. And it is specifically because my head is stuffed that I want to run, to clear my head.

I hope I do not regret this.

Distance: 3.1 miles
Duration: 30:39
Pace: 9:53

Dance/Electronic Mix

Block Rockin' Beats - The Chemical Brothers

Around the World - Daft Punk

Don't You Want Me (Purple Disco Machine Remix) - Human League

Star Guitar - The Chemical Brothers

Poor Leno - Röyksopp

Pacific 202 - 808 State

Right Here, Right Now - Pete Tong w/The Heritage Orchestra

Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 77°
Climate: sunny & warm
Mood: woozy

Ringing in my ears, slight pain in the head now. Dehydrated. Lungs feel better. Will shower and rest, see where the day takes me.

Ha ha, no, that's not ringing in my ears. That's what it sounds like outdoors! Those are insects! 

Stretches: yes
Water: yes
Weight: 160 lbs.

I made myself so strong again somehow.

But do we run when we have had a seriously messed up sleep schedule? Dropped the wife at the airport at 5:00 AM, drove home and got back into bed. So sleep has happened but I feel dizzy and weird.

Then again, I did have a flu shot and also a Covid booster yesterday! That may also have something to do with it. Okay, we're going with that. 

Distance: 2 miles
Duration: 18:04
Pace: 9:02

JIM STEINMAN SUPERSTAR PLAYLIST

It's All Coming Back to Me Now - Celine Dion

This Corrosion - Sisters of Mercy

Paradise By the Dashboard Lights - Meatloaf  

Route: Burlington Loop
Temperature: 80°
Climate: sunny & hot
Mood: good
Stretches: yes
Water: yes

Pain Reliever: TBD

Upper body: 30 rep

Core Strength: 

Yes, pumping iron when you had a vaccination the day before.

Baseline: 185 lbs.

Weight: 175 lbs. (-0-)

Goal: 170 lbs.

Breakfast: coffee w/cream, sausage, egg & cheese McMuffin, hash browns, monster-sized orange juice

Coffee Break: shitty Whole Foods root beer (DNF)

Lunch: pasta salad & Nosferatu

Snack: PB&J, strawberry milk

Writing time: old fashioned 

Dinner: ramen w/fried egg

Have you got enough gas?

Theater Camp is closed. I have been exposed to Covid. Also, there was an awful lot of movie theater popcorn available there. I don't know which is worse.

Day off from work, a reward for all of the work. Yesterday I sat down during the performance and realized that apart from that five minutes I spent eating two slices of pizza, I had been standing for the previous seven hours. Then I had to stand up two minutes later and didn't sit down again until I got into the van two hours after that.

Distance: 4 miles
Duration: 39:15
Pace: 9:48

Been listening to the Sweeping Up at Grebe's mix, from summer 1983. Have you ever had a Summer of 1983? Anyway Covid-Watch Day Two. Wish me luck.

Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 82°
Climate: sunny & hot
Mood: relieved
Stretches: yes
Water: yes

Sweeping Up at Grebe's Playlist

Little Red Corvette (Special Dance Mix) - Prince  the Revolution

King of Pain - The Police

Cool Places - Sparks ft. Jane Wiedlin

Don't Change - INXS

Pale Shelter (Long Version) - Tears for Fears

Lawyers In Love - Jackson Browne

Promised You a Miracle (US REMIX) - Simple Minds

Just Got Lucky - Jo Boxers

Hey. Are these "jo boxers"?

Upper body: 30 reps

Core Strength: TBA

Nice run. Beautiful, really. Hot, yes. Just as long as it should be, could have gassed out soon after. Slight pain in my left knee. There are always pains after, I try to mind the ones that happen during the run. Bandage that. Will wear shorts today. That school was so freaking air conditioned, I'm surprised I don't have a cold.

Yes, I know that's not how you get a cold.

Baseline: 185 lbs.

Weight: 174 lbs. (-1.0)

Goal: 170 lbs.

Popcorn does a body good.

Breakfast: coffee w/cream
Lunch: fried chicken pieces, eggplant dip w/pita, fizzy water

Dinner: big iced coffee, popcorn

Evening: beer

Solstice Burning: whiskey, smores (2)

"For the boys on MTV."

Home, again. Keeping my run on. This morning I am unmotivated specifically because I do not know what to listen to. I'm sure I'll come up with something.

Memories of Fall 2021, when the boy and I visited NYC. Photos pop up in the social media feed, and there are those photo books on the table, of the shed they used for outdoor pandemic dining. It was a time of great transition. It remains so.

Distance: 3.25 miles

Duration: 31:20
Pace: 9:38

So, my streaming service is like, "Wouldn't you like to listen to something we've called 80s pop retro tuesday early playlist?" And I'm like, sigh, yes, nailed it, I'm so obvious, woo-hoo.

Route: Boulevard Loop

Temperature: 50°
Climate: cool

Mood: all right

 

Ugh, Running before daylight. Anticipating a bad foot fall with every step is not good for my back. We just need to run in the early evening, it's not worth the injury. 

 
Stretches: yes

Water: yes

Ouch, yeah, fuck. Hurt my back.

Baseline: 195 lbs.

Current: 175 lbs. (+2.0)

Revised Goal: 170 lbs.

The word that would best describe this feeling would be haunted.

Big day planned -- which can be perilous. It's raining now, just an ordinary fall day. Let's get out and start the weekend on the right ... foot?

Recovery: 0109

Distance: 5.1 km

Duration: 29:13
Pace: 5:43/km

The plan is to write, and not just to write, but to complete a first draft of my new play. Can this happen in six hours? I believe that it can.

Route: Forest Hill Loop

Temperature: 50°
Climate: breezy & light rain

Mood: good

Perfect day for a zombie run, gloomy and damp with a "dark and goth" playlist.

Shit is getting real, this app was created over ten years ago, but I have been re-introduced to Runner 8, who is suspicious of Runner 5 (me). She also has a persistent cough. She's had it long enough that it doesn't make sense that she is "turning gray." 

But between the cough and her talk of a supposed, possibly entirely bogus vaccine which was distributed just prior to the collapse of civilization, it's quite timely.

Then she lets slip that she was bitten. So ... maybe the vaccine did work? Or maybe it prolongs the inevitable. We'll find out!

  

Stretches: yes

Sit-Ups: 60
Planks: 120 sec.

Water: yes

Speaking of vaccinations, I have my flu shot I have my most recent, Covid booster. Doing my best to remain prepared and vigilant and well.

Breakfast: coffee w/cream

Early Lunch: bean soup, crackers, ginger ale

Coffee Break: iced coffee, Swedish Fish

Tea Time: Toddy, cheese board

Dinner: popcorn, last of the Baxter’s, pizza, salad

Alcohol? 2x

Baseline: 195 lbs.

Current: 174 lbs. (+2.0) 

Goal: 165 lbs.

Sugar season. We have ice cream in the house, and that is bad news. I will try to maintain. Today, we write and work -- and exercise. taking breaks to do a little, light body work.

Reading: tbd

Writing: yes! scenes!

What's That Lyric?

Haunted When the Minutes Drag - Love & Rockets (162 BPM)

Moving in elliptical pattern.

Man. The sleep has been long this month. Eight hour sleeps, but this weekend they've been nine and ten hour sleeps, with no chemical intervention.

Got a kink in my ankle. It's lasted a day. Not something I like waking up with.

And so! Sleeping in, the time change, sore ankle, it all adds up to taking a day off from running! And well-earned, too.

Distance: 2.5 miles

Duration: 25:39
Pace: 10:15

Route: three times around the block

Temperature: 32°
Climate: light snow

Pavement: wet
Mood: good, actually

Quite a weekend. Active, and stressful. Why stressful? Not sure. Perhaps because it was so active. And yet, I saw beautiful things. We had dinner out, saw a show at the CMA. I attended the premiere of a local film and last night, my son playing with a jazz ensemble.

Why stress? Is it stress? Or just the feeling of experiencing life and people in a post-pandemic world? 

2009 Playlist

Animal - Miike Snow

Empire State of Mind - Jay-Z ft. Alicia Keys

1901 - Phoenix

Everyone's at it - Lily Allen

Sleepyhead - Passion Pit

Gimme Sympathy - Metric

Single Ladies (Microaggressive Mix) - Pomplamoose

What was 2009? My parents' 50th wedding anniversary cruise. We took And Then You Die (How I Ran a Marathon in 26.2 Years) to the New York Fringe Festival. Our eldest started elementary school.

 
Stretches: yes
Abdominals: 90 sec.
Water: yes

Sunday

Breakfast: coffee w/oatmilk cream 

Lunch: latte w/oatmilk, bagel w/olive cream cheese

Coffee Break: latte w/oatmilk

Dinner: smash burger & fries

Bedtime: Tea w/oatmilk cream & honey

Monday

Breakfast: coffee w/oatmilk cream (and almond cream), 1 serving frosted mini wheats & soy milk

Lunch: half toasted everything bagel w/lox, cream cheese & red onion

Coffee Hour: coffee w/oatmilk cream

Snack: sliced pear

Happy Hour: Fizzy water

Dinner: stir fry w/broccoli, celery, scallions, peppers, turnip greens over rice

Baseline: 195 lbs.

Current: 188.5 lbs. (+1.5)

Goal: 185 lbs.

We are young. We run green.

Sunday (September 11): Began feeling symptoms, difficult night's sleep.

Monday: Took a Covid test. It was positive.

Tuesday: Another bad night's sleep, the day was better.

Wednesday: My wife's birthday, she tested positive. Happy birthday.

Thursday: Feeling more human. Minor sore throat, slight ear ache.

Friday: Finally a good night's sleep, still tested positive.

However, a weekend of special plans was off the table, had a complete emotional breakdown. I have had eye surgery, now Covid, I miss my family, I miss life, I miss my mother, my world is getting smaller and smaller instead of bigger and bigger and I am falling into despair.

Saturday: Went without Benadryl for bed, I still slept well but woke feeling worse than the day before.

Sunday (September 18): On the mend. Still weak, disoriented. 

Monday: Still weak with minor congestion. Worried I will never feel normal again.

Tuesday: Another down day, achy head and listless body.

Wednesday: Took a short walk, felt good.

Thursday: Still muddled, pain in the head. Just want to sleep.

Took a walk, instead. A three mile walk on Thursday afternoon, like I did after my surgery, to keep up.  To get me through. Now it's cool, now it's breezy. Perfect running weather, and yet I am not running. But I am also not standing still.

Friday: Back to work. What do you know about that.

Saturday. Fell asleep the night before at eight. Woke at nine. Trimming one hedge in the yard rendered me exhausted and unmotivated for the rest of the afternoon.

Sunday (September 25): Easily wearied. Also, occasionally queasy.

Monday: Visiting actor-teachers in schools. Feeling next to normal.

Tuesday: Conducted a writing workshop for middle school students. I am on my feet. 

Distance: 3.1 miles
Duration: 30:33
Pace: 9:51
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 57°
Climate: overcast & cool
Mood: all right.
Stretches: yes
Water: yes

Okay, mother fuckers. We're back.

What's That Lyric?

Alright - Supergrass

Look at my scars. Look at my bones.

Ladies and gentlemen ... 56 Playlists for 56 Years (1967-2022).

2022 Playlist

Wild - Spoon

Love Me More - Mitski

More Pressure - Kae Tempest ft. Kevin Abstract

About Damn Time - Lizzo

Hi-De-Ho - Jack White ft. Q-Tip

Next to Normal - Lucius

Postman - Toro y Moi

The Only Heartbreaker - Mitski

As It Was - Harry Styles

Ride or Die - Hippo Campus

The house has COVID. I do not. Wish me luck.

Distance: 3.1 miles
Duration: 29:07
Pace: 9:23
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 63°
Climate: fucking gorgeous
Mood: good

Stretches: yes

Abdominals: 30 sec. (3x) 

Water: yes
Weight: 183 lbs. (+1.0)

Goal: 180 lbs.  

We ate a lot of bread last night. Gazpacho, yes. But also a lot of bread. And cheese. Pre-Father's Day celebration. Today we have lox and bagels!

Yes, I'm in the zone.

Up next!

So, I got a Covid booster yesterday. And yet, I feel like running. Because it's a beautiful sunny day and I feel great! Also, we're almost through the annual playlists and completion is a thing.

Distance: 3.1 miles
Duration: 28:48
Pace: 9:17
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 64°
Climate: sunny & perfect
Mood: all right

Stretches: no (ope)

Abdominals: 30 sec. (3x)

Water: yes
Weight: 182 lbs. (-0.5)

Goal: 180 lbs.  

My left knee hurts. Like, it doesn't hurt to run. But it hurts to stand up

2012 Playlist

Good Time - Carly Rae Jepsen ft. Owl City

What Makes You Beautiful - Harry Styles ft. One Direction

Call Me Maybe - Carly Rae Jepsen

Sweet Nothing - Calvin Harris ft. Florence Welch

Home - Phillip Phillips

Starships - Nicki Minaj

Moves Like Jagger - Maroon 5 ft. Christina Aguilera

Genesis - Grimes

We Found Love - Calvin Harris ft. Rihanna

And here we go again!

We're back. Sunny skies and feelins strong. Had a Covid scare this week, a friend with whom I was in close contact on Tuesday tested positive, so I have been playing it safe. But I feel absolutely fine. And the run made me feel even better.

Distance: 3.1 miles
Duration:31:04
Pace: 10:01
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 63°
Climate: bright & sunny
Mood: good

Stretches: a little

1979 Playlist

The Sound of the Suburbs - The Members

In the Navy - Village People

She's Lost Control - Joy Division

Crazy Little Thing Called Love - Queen

My Sharona - The Knack

Lucky Number*  - Lene Lovich

Goodbye Girl* - Squeeze

Knock On Wood - Amii Stewart

Voulez-Vous - ABBA

Good Times - Chic

Breathing gets harder. Even I know that.

#IGotTheShot

Got the shot on Wednesday. Felt sleepy for two days. Maybe it's time to hit the road again.

Distance: 2.95 miles

Duration: 29:17
Pace: 9:55
Route: Noble-Taylor Run 

Temperature: 81° 
Climate: overcast & humid

Mood: good

Weight: 188 lbs. (-0.5)

Sweaty run around the (larger) block with the kids. We make a good team.

2007 Playlist

Someone Great - LCD Soundsystem

Don't Stop the Music - Rihanna

Umbrella - Rihanna ft. Jay-Z

Worksleepeat - A Great Bog Pile of Leaves

North American Scum - LCD Soundsystem

Uninvited - Freemasons ft. Bailey Tzuke

Love Song - Sara Bareilles

Where thoughts can bloom.

Second dose this afternoon! Let's run now!

Distance: 3.1 miles
Duration: 30:59
Pace: 9:59
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 81°
Climate: hot! awesome!

Mood: really good!

Weight: 187.5 lbs. (-1.0)

Chewing gum while running is dangerous. Chewing gum while running keeps my mout moist and keeps me from gasping for air. Decisions.

2008 Playlist

I Will Possess Your Heart - Death Cab for Cutie

Just Dance - Lady Gaga

Nine in the Afternoon - Panic! at the Disco

Hot N Cold - Katy Perry

Miss Independent - Kelly Clarkson

Down to Earth - Peter Gabriel

Single Ladies (Put a Ring On It) - Beyonce

Try if you can to walk like a man.

Recovered! Recovered? I think so. The boy and I did the park on this beautiful spring day. It's snow on Monday, but fuck it.

Yeah, maybe there will be races this summer? Who knows? Never done a 5K with the boy. What if the three of us ran one together?

What if the four of us did? Hah? What do you think about that?

Distance: 3.13 miles
Duration: 30:29
Pace: 9:44
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 72°
Climate: hot & sunny

Mood: very good, thanks.

Weight: 190 lbs. (-0-)

The wife and I got our first vaccinations last Wednesday. Perhaps the is the end of the beginning.

1999 Playlist

Smooth - Santana ft. Rob Thomas of Matchbox 20

Walk Like a Panther - The All Seeing I

Livin' la Vida Loca - Ricky Martin

Steal My Sunshine - Lem

Learn to Fly - Foo Fighters

Blue - Eiffel 65 ft. Gabry Ponte

All Star - Smash Mouth

Five Fathoms - Everything But the Girl

MAXIMUM END OF THE CENTURY

Got nothing to prove.

This is a test.

Yes! Ran through the park, the only thing that hurt was how tightly I had wrapped my calf. Still, ati-inflammatory and ice.

Checked some times in the park for the new script, and did a FB Live test, to see how shaky the phone would be, holding it while running. How long someone can hold the camera up while running, that is a question. It won't need to be for too long. I mean, not very long. A little long.

Distance: 3.1 miles
Duration: 32:19
Pace: 10:25
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 64° 
Climate: beautiful

Mood: determined

Weight: 190 lbs. (-0-)

Good news! We have an appointment to receive a vaccine next week!

2019 Playlist

Running Up That Hill - Meg Myers

Rolling - Michael Kiwanuka

Light On - Maggie Rogers

Rocket Fuel - DJ Shadow ft. De La Soul

See You at Your Funeral - Pup

Uneventful Days - Beck

Like a Girl - Lizzo

Juice  - Lizzo

bad guy - Billie Eilish

Old Town Road - Lil Nas X ft. Billy Ray Cyrus

I see my reflection as I slowly pass.

The fewer people, the fewer interruptions. The boy sleeps until noon, if I do not wake him to go fishing, as happened yesterday. The wife has her own business, writing, reading, meditating.

I have time to read as much as I like. We are under self-imposed quaratine, we are not (supposed) to visit other cabins, to go into the market (they deliver, which is very nice) let alone venture to other towns. Just as well, Camden, I hear is busy with shoppers, and the sidealks are so narrow. Ridiculous.

The wife gifted me with The Mirror and the Light back in March, and I have been an unresponsible reader with it. It is over 750 pages, a hefty tome. Authors tend to go long when they are trying to tie things up, but I have poor reading habits working days, even in quarantine, taking in a page or two a night before becoming drowsy. I have read perhaps a hundred or more since the week began.

The smell of the cove enfolds me this morning, sitting out on the new porch. There is no odor like it anywhere else in the world, not that I have enountered. Sea and tree and cut wood. I am privileged to be here, and I believe I am only now embracing my gift. Before it was not my choice.

Distance: 3 miles
Duration: 29:07
Pace: 9:42
Route: Martin Point Run
Temperature: 72°
Climate: overcast & breezy
Mood: all right

The Martin Point route is pleasurable, with its many rises and falls. As long as it is not too sunny (today it is not) and the breeze is mild it's downright idylic. See the chart for the elevation -- it is not a perfect mirror because I decided to stop at 3 miles, not for any particular reason except I was satisfied and wanted to walk a little bit.

What's That Lyric?
I WIll Possess Your Heart - Death Cab For Cutie

I'm feeling jake.

Barnstable, c. 1974

More vacation, more time away. We return to the ancestral place of respite. We do not own this cabin it owns us. My great-grandfather actually rented the Defiance on the water, bringing his family here first a hundred and ten odd years ago. that cabin was raised this past year, rising sea levels have caused it to flood at spring tide.

I heard a story once that the old man coveted the Barnstable, and was in conflict with the renter here to finally secure his place on the schedule to have it for the summer. I do not know what this means. Whoever told me that story has passed.

The Barnstable, too, has received a pleasantly signifcant upgrade. The porch is new. No longer sagging forward, and with wide, open stairs now in the middle, rather than off to the side, providing more space to move around and a new, unobstructed view of the cove.

Barnstable, 2020

Distance: 3.5 miles
Duration: 34:28
Pace: 9:50
Route: Martin Point Run
Temperature: 77°
Climate: gorgeous
Mood: all right now

Running at noon, the morning clouds burned away. A bright and sunny run. Kayakers. Dog-walkers, one other runner. All more than six feet away.

We are three in the big house. The first time it has been in my own name. I never thought that would happen. Next year it will be different. We had plans t put mother to rest but no one else wanted to risk the journey, and that is fair. We can wait. There is always time.

What's That Lyric?
Just Got Lucky - Jo Boxers

Hey-hey-hello!

Last week the girl and I watched movies pretty much every night. She wanted to get her retro teen flick experience, so we viewed Back To the Future, Ferris Buller's Day Off and Clueless.

Also Sweeney Todd, which was far more gruesome than I remembered, but ah well. She knew what she was getting into. We also watched Hamilton a couple times.

I was surprised to find Party Girl available on Amazon, so we also watched that. Made the same year as Clueless and with less than one percent of that Hollywood film's budget (seriously, Party Girl was made for $150,000) it was a starring vehcle for 90s indie-queen Parkey Posey and though I only saw it once, I bought the soundtrack and that is a much-loved CD.

I wondered if it was available on Spotify (yes, we now have a family subscription to Spotify) and was first surprised to see that it was! And then that it was not -- but what I had found was a fan playlist including all of the songs included in the film, many of which are not available on the CD.

Anyway, that is what I am listening to on my beach runs this week. Imitate a cat puking.

Distance: 2 miles
Duration: 22:30
Pace: 11:15
Route: Topsail Island Beach
Temperature: 81°
Climate: dark clouds, spitting rain
Mood: all right

High tide is not the best time to run here, there is only a narrow strip of firm sand to run on, which is sometimes subsumed by surf (I am running in shoes so far) and to avoid all others on the beach, I am sometimes dashing up onto the sandy part. It is like ... well, it is like running in sand.

But it felt good. Two miles under these conditions, with the wind and the sand giving below my feet, is more like three miles. So much more effort. And it's beautiful.

The beach, for those who are interested, is not crowded. When we are on it, we are close to no one. And there is the constant wind. I am unconcerned about transmission in this place.

Running the streets.

Woke sore, of course. Thought it would be best to run than not to. Work those sore muscles. On another day I would have gone to the park but I don't want to injure myself.

My heart hurts.

Distance: 2 miles
Duration: 19:20
Pace: 9:40
Route: Two times around the block.
Temperature: 72°
Climate: sunny & bright
Mood: complicated
Weight: 184 lbs. (+1.0)

What's That Lyric?
Rough Boys - Pete Townshend

Watch the humans trying to run.

A crisp Saturday morning. Last night we were all emerging into the world of art and culture. A jazz performance on a doorstep in my neighborhood, the girl took her boyfriend to a drive-in movie (a drive-in movie!)

We strive for normalcy. I will strive to the park.

Distance: 3.65 miles
Duration: 34:19
Pace: 9:24
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 59°
Climate: bright & sunny
Mood: determined
Weight: 184 lbs. (-1.0)

Okay. I am again a runner.

Teenage Kicks 06/13/2020
Fascination Street - The Cure
Personal Jesus - Depeche Mode
These Are Days - 10,000 Maniacs
Real Situation - Bob Marley & The Wailers
Kick * - INXS
Down In The Park * - Gary Numan
Justice Tonight / Kick It Over * - The Clash

All the news reports recommended that I stay indoors.

The wife was proctoring a test in her office (our bedroom) with her camera on, so I missed my window of opportunity. I ran in cotton and soiled running gear. But hey, two miles. I could have gone to the park, but there's a lot to do today.

Distance: 2 miles
Duration: 18:11
Pace: 9:06
Route: Two times around the block.
Temperature: 75°
Climate: bright & hot
Mood: all right, man.
Weight: 189 lbs. (-0-)

Two miles a day, every day, is extremely helpful to my mind, body and soul. Also, yesterday was my second without alcohol. Now, I had a terrible night's sleep, due to the heat, but I am no longer feeling "the feeling." So, maybe?

What's That Lyric?
We Will Become Silhouettes - Postal Service