Sunday, April 23, 2017

We're slow to acknowledge the knots in our laces.

Running once a week? Sure, whatever. Truth, the mornings have been occupied with reading plays, and that has been exciting. This weekend, however, has been nothing but suck, as I have had a headache the entire time. Hate, hate, hate headaches. Too obvious? Fucking hate them.

However, it does mean I have been resting my hip, and I suppose that is a good thing, too. The question is, does rest make a difference?

Distance: 2.40 miles
Avg. Pace: 8:56
Duration: 21:26
Route: Horizon Loop

That was unsatisfying. My head doesn't hurt, but I feel logy and slow. This run just made me feel tired and unbalanced. No idea what the future brings.

Temperature: 54°
Climate: cool
Mood: questionable.

What's That Lyric?
Heart It Races - Dr. Dog

Sunday, April 16, 2017

Run cold.

Life. Don't talk to me about life.
Now that the weather has turned warm (in Athens at least) I am aware of hydration much more, the moment I step out I feel dry. Yesterday I used gum ... I know, it's a danger. But it works so well, keeping my mouth moist, my throat comfortable, not to feel like gasping.

Distance: 3 miles
Avg. Pace: 8:11
Duration: 24:35
Route: Hocking River Bike Path

So, my back has been hurting on and off for a few months, like it did a few years back. But there is a straight line from where it hurts (left side) down my leg. Is it related to the sciatic? God, I need to see a doctor.

Last night was not a restful one, unlike the night before. A lot of tossing and turning, and my hip hurt. The run was challenging, pain all down my left side.

Jesus Christ, I sound like Marvin.

Temperature: 72°
Climate: partly cloudy, sun & light rain
Mood: all right

Running past the new (newish?) wastewater treatment center, I am reminded how much the odor of raw sewage reminds me of my tender pre-adolescent days, scrounging for pornography behind the tracks in the Westlake municipal dump.

O.U. Nostalgia Run
Birth, School, Work, Death - The Godfathers
The Beat(en) Generation * - The The
This Corrosion - The Sisters of Mercy
Hey Ladies - Beastie Boys
The Feeling Begins - Peter Gabriel

Saturday, April 15, 2017

Never gonna run around (and desert you.)

Puzzling evidence.
Saw a play last night - you can read about the play here - and my sciatic was acting up. Jesus, that makes me sound old "my sciatic was acting up." I'm a writer, I need to create some cheeky metaphors. Anyway, four hours in the car followed by a three mile run. Sitting and running, I need some physical therapy

It hurts to sit. This just sucks.

In any case, the morning was spent reading and ruminating, first in front of the fire, then out on the porch. Cardinals, fat bees, the almost overwhelming scent of honeysuckle. Now, running. It's just to perfect out.

Distance: 4 miles
Avg. Pace: 8:11
Duration: 32:47
Route: Hocking River Bike Path

Beautiful morning by the river, lots of students walking on bikes and skateboards, parents with their children. Just lovely. Nice run, felt relaxed, not going too fast, pleasant breeze kept things from feeling too hot. Could have pressed on, glad I did not overdo it yesterday.

Temperature: 75°
Climate: warm & overcast
Mood: good. when did I last say "good"?

Everyone is out right now, I am on my own with explicit instructions to head off somewhere once I have cleaned up to write somewhere, do that writing I have been writing about writing. I'd like to go to Donkey, but who knows, I may get distracted by the street fair.

O.U. Nostalgia Playlist
Never Gonna Give You Up  - Rick Astley
If Love Was a Train - Michelle Shocked
She's Got a Brand New Spell - Billy Bragg
Last Night - Traveling Wilburys
You Win Again * - Bee Gees
Down In It - Nine Inch Nails
Puzzlin' Evidence * - Talking Heads
Cuyahoga - R.E.M.
I'm The Man - Anthrax

No, srsly. Mah playlist got RickRolled. Speaking of which, you can actually read about last night's performance here.

Friday, April 14, 2017

Feel it right down 2 my toes.

Well. Nothing like a four-hour car ride with a fourteen year-old to provide a rich diet of complete garbage. Chips, candy, soda, chocolate ... I feel like an inflatable tire full of goo.

Also, late night, early morning, long drive, took a nap from which I could not awaken. Still rather dizzy. But ti's beautiful warm, fragrant and overcast, and there may be coeds by the river.

Distance: 3 miles
Avg. Pace: 8:12
Duration: 24:37
Route: Hocking River Run

What did I think while suiting up? What do I gain from running. Like, what am I going to gain from this. Am I striving toward a goal, a race, to complete a strong of annual playlists, am I excited about writing this blog.

How about the run itself? A run by the river in a beautiful region of the state at the perfect time of year. Isn't that enough? Yes, it is. It certainly is.

Temperature: 79°
Climate: bright & warm
Mood: getting there

O.U. Nostalgia Playlist
Bust a Move - Young MC
Soul Free - George Michael
Can't Stop This Feeling I Got - Prince
Halo - Depeche Mode
The Queen and the Soldier - Suzanne Vega
Vanishing Girl - The Dukes of Stratosphear

Sunday, April 09, 2017

Standing upright, pounding along.

Oh, God. We saw Jonathan Richman at the Grog Shop on Wednesday. I was listening to DJBG a few weeks ago and I was the first caller and suddenly I had plans to see a ROCK MUSIC SHOW.

I mean, not really, we were seeing Jonathan Richman, which is like watching a stoned hipster beatnik guru (almost) effortless make up an entire set about parties, girls, unattainable happiness and that stuff that gets stuck to the side of the sink that you don't know what it is but it's pretty gross.

Distance: 3.25 miles
Avg. Pace: 7:42
Duration: 25:04
Route: Forest Hill Loop

Almost thirty years ago a friend at school has an extra ticket to see Jonathan at a club in Columbus, but he didn't have a date or a car so I got to be his date and his car. It was a wonderful experience, I went up to the singer after the show to shake his hand and tell him how much I enjoyed he performance and he looked at me like I was insane.

That was a few years before he released I, Jonathan which is one of my very favorite albums ever. It's romantic and amusing and it's got a good beat and you can run to it.

Temperature: 66°
Climate: bright & beautiful
Mood: It's magic! It's magic!

He closed with Lesbian Bar, and it was apparent that it was the only song anyone in the room knew. He'd also performed a slowed down version of Old World from The Modern Lovers, but I'm not sure anyone caught that. I'm not certain I did.

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 164.5 lbs. (-0.5)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

Bright day in the park, humid and adventurous. My left hip still hurts. What are you gonna do? These shoes are everything. New shoes for me, from now on, all the time. All my extra spending money, on new shoes.

Dog walkers, thank you, for cleaning up after them, and bringing them to heel.

I, Jonathan - Jonathan Richman (1992)
Parties in the U.S.A.
Tandem Jump *
You Can't Talk to the Dude
Velvet Underground *
I Was Dancing in the Lesbian Bar
Rooming House on Venice Beach
Grunion Run
A Higher Power *

Wednesday, April 05, 2017

Running from the abyss.

Yeah, I'm listening.
Ladies and gentlemen ... 52 Playlists for 52 Years.

2017 Playlist
On Hold - The xx
Runnin' - Pharrell Williams
OneHundred - Sims
How Far I'll Go - Auli'i Cravalho
Feel It Still - Portugal. The Man
Say Goodbye - Green Day
High Ticket Attractions - The New Pornographers
Hot Thoughts - Spoon
I Give You Power - Arcade Fire ft. Mavis Staples

Distance: 3.75 miles
Avg. Pace: 7:58
Duration: 29:54
Route: Boulevard Loop

Visited Dad on my way across town. Things there were the same. Can't remember when I last visited, there was snow on the ground, I believe. That could have been, I don't know, September. Or January. Really, no idea. I do not know why I visit, but when it is convenient, when I can just hop off the highway I do. We talk. I talk, I guess. Seems like something I want to do, not that I feel compelled to do. I guess it makes me feel better somehow.

Temperature: 64°
Climate: sunny & hot
Mood: pissed off

This month I am reading a "Play a Day" and recording my thoughts on my writing blog, so you might want to check that out. Meantime, we are going to see Johnathan Richman at the Grog Shop tonight, which is a million colors of awesome.

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 165 lbs. (+0.5)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

Beautiful day, a bit breezy on the uphill, pushing me back, but I felt free. A bit liberated. Still trying to hook into the new narrative, the reading is inspirational. But things are going on. Life is moving forward. It is unimaginable how depressed we have all been feeling these past few months.

Monday, April 03, 2017

I can still hear the footsteps.

Elvis stops the show.
Running in new shoes is like running through a brand new world, on new, comfortable surfaces. Yesterday there was still a kink in my right ankle, as before. It was a mental exercise to roll through my foot properly, to not favor one leg over the other, that is how I can cause further damage.

Soon the pain was gone, all was well. The new shoes were doing their work, and all was good. Today, no pain at all.

Distance: 3.25 miles
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Pavement: dry
Temperature: 52°
Climate: overcast & cool
Mood: all right

Unfortunately, last Friday I wore some old leather shoes to work which I believed had been broken in. But, uh, they hadn't been. My heels got all chewed up, there are sore spots there, not yet scabs. However, father left me (which is to say, I took from his closet) a set of shoes stretchers and I am using them to give these nice, virtually new shoes (dress brown Timberlands) a new direction.

Thanks, Dad.

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 164.5 lbs. (-1.5)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

The girl and her cohort are obsessed with Saturday Night Live. They are desperately waiting for next weekend when new episodes resume. I have said a few things about watching the show in the early days, but have resisted sitting her down to watch any, because I don't think she would like them. Few women (only the chosen one and the humiliated one) and one person of color who was sorely miscast. Mostly brash, obnoxious, white, drug-addled men, and that's just a fact.

1977 Playlist
See No Evil - Television
Never Going Back Again - Fleetwood Mac
I Robot - Alan Parson Project
Warsaw * - Joy Division
Commando - The Ramones
Tie Your Mother Down - Queen
Stayin' Alive - Bee Gees
Less Than Zero - Elvis Costello

2017: The year Television broke. I have known about this band for decades. Why have I never listened to them?

Sunday, April 02, 2017

Don't let it get you down, good people.

For Christmas, mom got me a gift certificate for Cleveland Running Co. on Lee Road (thanks, Mom) which was very nice. Though I have only been running in the Asics Josh gave me for ten months, I have given them quite a workout, and my feet have been causing me pain of late.

And, hey. Gift certificate.

So Jim fixed me up with a pair of Brooks Neuro 2, and also a new pair of all-weather pants. Good news!

Distance: 3.25 miles
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Pavement: dry
Temperature: 54°
Climate: sunny & cool
Mood: decent

Lordy, if every day could be like today, I would run forever. Too much to do, however, so I kept it short. Bright and cool, with an amazing playlist. Only two more in the 52 Years list, and it is a bit anticlimactic. Worked up a head of steam then petered out in March. For the best, I imagine. And I probably get to complete the 2017 Playlist on another beautiful, spring day.

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 166 lbs. (+2.0)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

Karl goes under the "knife" on Friday, arthroscopic surgery on his knee. He has a torn meniscus, as I had nine years ago and is having a similar procedure. Everything goes as planned, he'll be back on his feet in no time.

That was a difficult time for me, I was turning forty and I had my last run in July 2008. It was very painful, I just kept going even though things never got any better. I was in denial for some time. Since the operation in September 2008, I have run two marathons and basically feel as good as I ever have.

Positive thoughts for Karl!

1997 Playlist
Piku - Chemical Brothers
Good Shit - Cornershop
Come - The Vampyres
Fat Ass Joint - Cujo
Star People '97 - George Michael
Parsec * - Stereolab

Thursday, March 30, 2017

A lifestyle of fun.

Somebody that I used to blow.
Last week, right after the wife left town, our boy came down with a serious allergy attack which has left him coughing ever since. He's been given several medications to alleviate the condition, we think he may have a touch of the asthma.

What I can say is that he has spent very little time out of doors or getting any exercise at all, which is only right for recovery but he's very squirrelly and has been jumping around a lot. We are overdue for a run/bike ride.

Distance: 2.35 miles
Avg. Pace: 8:02
Duration: 18:54
Route: Horizon Loop

However, my back end continues to trouble me I no long think it is a hip condition, or if it was that is no longer the issue. It pains me to sit for long periods. No idea what will come of this.

Pavement: wet
Temperature: 43°
Climate: rain & thunder
Mood: confounded

Bracing run in the rain. Cold rain, brief run. Good to get out an move my legs. Today is a personal day, the wife is home, kids still on break. We did not have the opportunity to visit the zoo on Calvin's Day, so that is where we are headed now.

A walk through the zoo in the rain. Sounds like fun.

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 164 lbs. (-1.0)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

2012 Playlist
Madness - Muse
Somebody That I Used to Know (Mike D Remix) - Gotye ft. Kimbra
Live While We're Young - One Direction
Paddling Out - Miike Snow
Take a Walk - Passion Pit

Sunday, March 26, 2017

I'm in need of some restraint.

Last night I was up until one am with a sick child and this morning my hip hurts from the first run I had taken in almost two weeks.

But its sixty degrees out, and it's Sunday. That is when the running happens.

Distance: 3.25 miles
Avg. Pace: 8:39
Duration: 28:08
Route: Forest Hill Loop

A lazy Sunday morning, but not lazy enough. My mind is in such a tumult I could not locate my toe spacers and I headed out with my last running shoes. I should have turned around, I had a kink in one ankle, then the other, and in my right knee again, briefly. Took it a little easier. That's hard for me to do.

I am overdue for new shoes.

Temperature: 63°
Climate: coll & humid
Mood: anxious

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 165 lbs. (-3.0) Uh, okay?
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

1968 Playlist
Grazing In the Grass - Hugh Masekela
Trouble/Guitar Man (live) - Elvis Presley
Stray Cat Blues - The Rolling Stones
Can I Change My Mind - Tyrone David
Daydream Believer - The Monkees
Sympathy for the Devil - The Rolling Stones
White Light/White Heat - The Velvet Underground
Son of a Preacher Man - Dusty Springfield
Astral Weeks - Van Morrison

Saturday, March 25, 2017

See how I've changed now? My head's so clear.

Last week I gave up. It has been a long time since I have done that, but I just stopped exercising entirely. The fact that it has been cold has a lot to do with it, but also because I have been in pain and I was tired of exacerbating the pain. In my hip, my sciatic nerve. Monday morning I woke up and my legs just felt horrible, heavy and pained.

Also, depressed. Uninspired. Without motivation of any kind. These moods come. They also go.

Distance: 3.25 miles
Avg. Pace: 8:15
Duration: 26:49
Route: Forest Hill Park Loop

Meanwhile, I ate everything. I ate all the things. Just stopped caring. And as I passed the ten day mark I realized I had become afraid of running.That doing so would be a bad thing, not a good thing. The pain would return, and I would be depressingly more aware of the pounds I had added, after being so judicious and careful since New Year's.

I have been through this for more than half my life. But I have never been in this kind of existential quandary about running itself. Not that I can't run, that I am prohibited from running, physically. Nor that I am depressed and that I do not want to run, emotionally.  But that I actually feel what is the point of all this running? Why do it?

Personally, I blame Trump.

Pavement: dry
Temperature: 54°
Climate: overcast & cool
Mood: trying.

Did I mention the headaches? Allergy season. It was between fifty and seventy degrees yesterday, but there was just no way.

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 168 lbs. (+3.5)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

Winded at first, just like starting over. Eased up as I went. First I felt a twinge in my right knee (did I mention I had an evening last week when my right knee was in a great deal of pain) then a twist in my left ankle. Both went away. Kept moving.

Felt good to visit the park again. Trees that fell over two weeks ago, cut up and waiting to be carted away. Wonder if I would get apprehended for taking a few of the smaller ones for the fire pit.

Did I mention I got a fire pit? The wife is out of town for the week, and there will be a few pleasant surprises around when she returns.

Did I mention my wife is out of town?

1992 Playlist
My Name Is Prince - Prince
Blood Makes Noise - Suzanne Vega
My Lovin' (You're Never Gonna Get It) - En Vogue
Freedom (Back To Reality Mix) - George Michael
The Ballad of Peter Pumpkinhead - XTC
Fascination (Live) - Everything But the Girl

This was the year everything happened. Started my first theater company, Bill Clinton was elected, also I was married -- for the first time.

Good Lord, but that last one describes the feelings I had about her. Sad lesson.

What was it we were thinking of?

Sunday, March 12, 2017

How long can a good thing last?

Pain comes, pain goes, but this ache in my left hip continues and I am taking it a bit easier and I don't like that. Can't tell what's going on here, my entire left leg has been affected this season, from my hip on down. Aggravation.

Distance: .85 miles
Avg. Pace: 8:44
Duration: 7:10
Route: One lap around the block.

And yet. Two days without a run, and my right thigh is doing that thing it does, the burning sensation, when I do not exercise. Can't rest, can't win.

Pavement: dry
Temperature: 23°
Climate: cold
Mood: tired

On top of that, a zipper on the cuff of my cold weather running pants busted. Admittedly, my brother gave me these as a gift well over ten years ago. Still, it was a little depressing. Used rubber bands on the cuff, plan to get new pants tomorrow. Big sigh.

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 164.5 lbs. (-0.5)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

Not feeling it today. Heading out it felt too cold, a light breeze was making my cheeks ache with the cold. Also, my hip started hurting. Also, just felt generally tired. Staying up too late, waking up early. Eff Daylight Saving Time.

The wife wonders if she should be worried. I mean, I am fine, I felt I have pushed myself too hard this winter. Fighting too hard.

1972 Playlist
Pusherman - Curtis Mayfield
Soul Survivor - The Rolling Stones

Thursday, March 09, 2017

Here I go and I don't know why.

Forest Hill Park
My left hip was in pain Tuesday night, took the day off yesterday. I should take every other day off, right? Seems a little manic, actually. At least, when I am running. When I am not, well, it feels like not running then, doesn't it?

It makes me wonder, though. When does this all stop? When do I run out? Don't mean to be maudlin, but it will happen. I have been charging lately, going faster than I really should, probably. It feels good to run fast, but limping around the rest of the day? Perhaps a bad idea.

We watched Arrival last night, so I'm feeling very fragile.

Distance: 3.66 miles
Avg. Pace: 8:24
Duration: 30:43
Route: Forest Hill Loop

And oh, Jesus. I came into the house crying. It was crazy. I was having a relaxing run, mostly relaxing, taking it slower than usual. The park was littered with huge, downed trees. The windstorm last night was tremendous, climate change is ripping the planet apart.

Last night I fell asleep wondering if a branch from the large, ancient tree in our front yard would have enough momentum to impale the roof, our ceiling and into our bed.

The movie last night ... no one would have listened to her, you know? Not in the real world. They never mention gender, but there she is, surrounded by men. There are no other female characters in authority, not in the military, the NSA, the government, the young saboteur/terrorists. All men. In this world, they would not have listened to her. This President would have blown the thing up.

My hip still hurts. Is it just overuse, is it arthritic? We're not an arthritic family. A doctor would say it's because I run. If I asked, how do I make the pain go away? They would say stop, running. I lost part of my meniscus nine years ago. Ran two marathons since. You get one body, but also only one life.

Turning into the drive, I didn't look up, and thought, what would have happened had my wife been backing out, had struck me with her car, how she would have screamed, if she backed over my leg, and before I knew it was I was at the door, gripping my thigh. And I started to bawl.

We were moving steadily towards progress. Now we are backing away as fast as we can.

Pavement: dry
Temperature: 39°
Climate: cool
Mood: so, uhm, yeah

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 165 lbs. (+0.5)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

1988 Playlist
Dancing Barefoot - Patti Smith
Bring Me Some Water - Melissa Etheridge
Kinda I Want To (demo) - Nine Inch Nails
Drug (It's Just a State of Mind) [Daniel Abraham Mix] - Duran Duran
Chains of Love - Erasure
Mary, Mary - Run-D.M.C.
She's Got a Brand New Spell - Billy Bragg
We're seeing Patti Smith downtown on Sunday night. Really looking forward to that.

Tuesday, March 07, 2017

I'll go crawling back to the city I love.

Hey, y'all. Good mornin'.
Woo. Scored some terrific chafing these past two runs (sorry if that is too much information, this is a runner's blog) but when you get a morning in the fifties in March, you take it. Glide it is.

Distance: 3.25 miles
Avg. Pace: 8:05
Duration: 26:18
Route: Forest Hill Loop

Also, intestinal distress. Man, I have all the complaints this morning. What did we eat last night? Vegetarian tacos, spaghetti squash tacos. Hmn. No one else seemed affected. And this morning I celebrated #NationalCerealDay with, well, what I usually eat, granola and yogurt. No idea. You're losing it, old man.

Pavement: wet
Temperature: 54°
Climate: refreshing, light rain
Mood: progressive

Not a goose.
Great springtime-like run. Geese out in force. I am glad to say I have never been attacked by a goose, at least not yet. The lagoon is swollen from last night's rain, but the path was still clear.

The neighborhood association does a wonderful job keeping the park clear and beautiful, but some of the ancient stone and brickwork needs repair. Like the man says, such a crumbling beauty. Aaah, there's nothin' about her municipal funds wouldn't fix.

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 163.5 lbs. (+1.0)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

2008 Playlist
In the Heights - Lin-Manuel Miranda & Company
I Caught Myself - Paramore
Echoes Round the Sun - Paul Weller
Freeway - Aimee Mann
American Boy (Soulseekerz Club Remix) - Estelle
Coney Island - Good Old War

On this morning, last year, we were probably listening to Hamilton.

Getting Hamilton tickets was much easier and cheaper the second time.

Monday, March 06, 2017

Tears are running.

Forest Hill footbridge (East Cleveland)
Good day! This week I will be managing the @InTheCLE Twitter handle this week, so if you are a tweeter, please check that out. If you are visiting this site because I posted something on #InTheCLE, then welcome.

I am an avid if not always competent runner, and I have used this blog to record every run I have taken since 2006. My dedication in making a blog post, even a brief one, for every run has inspired my running, and vice versa.

Distance: 3.25 miles
Avg. Pace: 8:00
Duration: 26:00
Route: Forest Hill Loop

My favorite route is through Forest Hill Park which borders Cleveland Heights and East Cleveland. One mile, about a mile through the park itself, and one mile back. Soon the green will emerge on the trees, and I can't wait for that.

Pavement: dry
Temperature: 48°
Climate: overcast & cool
Mood: #InTheCLE!

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 162.5 lbs. (-1.0)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

Finally, at the start of every calendar year I make my way through the terrible weather (when there used to be terrible weather) by running to playlists from every year I have been alive, and then some. Today we will be listening to the sweet summer-of-love sounds of 1967.

1967 Playlist
Lies - The Knickerbockers
Easy Rider * - Big Brother & The Holding Co.
Ain't Got No - I Got Life - Nina Simone
People Are Strange - The Doors
Hip Hug-Her - Booker T. & The MG's
Here Comes My Baby * - Cat Stevens
Little Games - The Yardbirds
Blindman - Big Brother & The Holding Co.
Somebody To Love - Jefferson Airplane
Boogaloo Down Broadway - The Fantastic Johnny C
All Tomorrow's Parties * - The Velvet Uniderground & Nico

Actually, Lies is from 1966, but I only just discovered that one. No doubt people were still listening to it a year later. But, oh, that Nico-inspired sprint! I wonder where all that BPM was coming from with just four people there

Sunday, March 05, 2017

Never want to put my feet back down on the ground.

Dig that little waistline.
Yesterday I'm picking up my son from his music lesson. There's a number of adults waiting for the band to break up. I'm looking at my screen, this guy is sitting at a desk making a note on something. I haven't met him before, but he turns to me and starts a conversation.

He begins, "You look about my age, can I ask you something?" He does look about my age. He wants to know, if it's going to make you hurt, what is the point of exercising? You're going to hurt one way or another.

He says this, and I think of how it pained me to get out of my tiny car, just minutes earlier. I had taken my run, cleaned up, cooled down, got into my car for twenty minutes to pick up the boy, and getting out of that car, yeah, it hurt.

"Some pain is better than others?" I offered.

It's a question.

Distance: 7:50
Avg. Pace: 7:49
Duration: 58:38
Route: Forest Hill/Boulevard/Noble Loop

Anyway, I found out this was not another parent, but my son's new instructor, so that was a cool introduction.

Pavement: dry
Temperature: 27°→32°
Climate: cold, then not-so-cold
Mood: determined

How to crush a sub-freezing Sunday run? College music. Seriously, that playlist is one for the thirty year reunion.

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 163.5 lbs (-1.0)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

Lost ten pounds since New Year's. 160 is ideal.

1987 Playlist [Extended Remix]
I Know You Got Soul - Eric B. & Rakim
Hand To Mouth - George Michael
Never Let Me Dwon Again - Depeche Mode
I Want Your (Hands On Me) - Sinead O'Connor
Hard Day (Shep Pettibone Remix) - George Michael
I Started Something I Couldn't Finish - The Smiths
Rock Steady - Sting
Strange - R.E.M.
My Sister Rose - 10,000 Maniacs
New Sensation - INXS
A Japanese Dream - The Cure
Guns In The Sky - INXS
Rent - Pet Shop Boys
Diamonds - Herb Alpert ft. Janet Jackson & Lisa Keith
Big Love - Fleetwood Mac

Just couldn't stop running. Every song kept pushing me forward.

Now I'm really in pain.

Saturday, March 04, 2017

I need it.

"The Jabberwocky" tour continues!
Here's the thing about moderate exercise. One rep of jackknives, 30 sec. of planking, and suddenly I need to use the next notch on my belt.

Jackknives? Jackknifes? Whatever.

The point is, it doesn't take much. However, I have noticed working the Wii these past two days that my balance has deteriorated. Another reason to stick with it. I am getting older, not younger (same to you) and yes, I need more than aerobic exercise and a healthy diet.

And my arms are no longer aching the way they were the other night.

Distance: 3.25 miles
Avg. Pace: 7:44
Duration: 25:10
Route: Forest Hill Loop

Bright and sunny ... but cold! Still, great to get out into the afternoon sun without a deathly gale in my face. The geese were very passive, it was nap time or something.

Pavement: wet
Temperature: 27°
Climate: sunny & cold
Mood: curious

Here is my first 2007 Playlist ... from 2007!

  • Dashboard - Modest Mouse
  • No Tomorrow - Orson
  • It's All True - Tracey Thorn
  • Acceptable in the 80s - Calvin Harris
  • Synchronize - Tomboy
  • Thnks Fr Th Mmrs - Fall Out Boy
  • Sonido Total - The Pinker Tones
  • Flathead - The Fratellis
  • Mister Sister - The Tender Box
  • Make It Easy (John Tejada Remix) - Lusine
  • Love Today - Mika

Funny but none of them were on today's playlist.

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 164.5 lbs. (-1.0)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

2007 Playlist
No Love Lost * - LCD Soundsystem
You Know I'm No Good - Amy Winehouse
Club Situation - Gravy Train !!!
I Feel It All * - Feist
Mistaken for Strangers - The National
1973 - James Blunt
Nan You're a Window Shopper * - Lily Allen

Friday, March 03, 2017


Just not in the mood for a frigid run. Totally spoiled now. Wait a few days, it will be in the fifties again.

However, I have neglected any kind of upper body activity for so long. My let bicep was aching terribly, There's very little density there. Weak, weak arms.

This morning I hopped on the Wii Fit again. It has been well over a year (it keeps track of that.) It would serve me well to hit that daily, or at least several days a week.

Doesn't take much. You think, every day, what about a dozen curls? You know, just to start? That's nothing? Then it never happens.

I's like to feel stronger than this. I can be stronger than this.

Duration: 19 minutes

Wednesday, March 01, 2017

All we've got left is a beat in the night.

Today in silly clickbait:

6 Reasons Your Doctor Needs to Know You’re a Runner
by Teal Burrell, Runner's World 1/23/2017

Every time I meet a new doctor, the moment they use a stethoscope they ask, "You run?"

I don't think I want to meet the doctor who can't tell a runner right off the bat.

Distance: 3.25 miles
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Pavement: wet
Temperature: 52°
Climate: light rain
Mood: okay

Beautiful "spring" day. The wife actually has the day off, as her school's power is out after last night's storms. But I am headed to three different schools today, in three different communities, for meetings, teaching and parent responsibilities.

All the water fowl, in the lagoon. Just gorgeous.

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 165.5 lbs. (+1.5)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

Oh, yes. "Fat Tuesday." The perfect excuse to have hot pastrami at lunch and a cheeseburger and onions rings for dinner. Only I'm not Catholic so I'll be eating the same things today.

2003 Playlist
The District Sleeps Alone Tonight * - The Postal Service
In Between Days * - Ben Folds
Title and Registration - Death Cab for Cutie
Gay Bar * - Electric Six
Burning Down the House - Tom Jones & The Cardigans
Yeah - Usher ft. Lil' Jon & Ludacris
Look for Water - David Bowie
It's My Life - Liquid People vs. Talk Talk

Tuesday, February 28, 2017

Going backward.

Nineteen runs in February, tied for record set in 2012.

February 2017 Median Run Temperature: 41.6°
February 2012 Median Run Temperature: 35.2°

Granted, those are days I chose to run. Some days I intentionally chose not to because it was so cold, but that's true of both years.

Distance: 3.3 miles
Avg. Pace: 7:38
Duration: 25:12
Route: Forest Hill Loop

Late nights, this week we are watching When We Rise. Can't believe a series like this is on network TV. I remember the Red Hot + Blue controversy in 1990 when basic information on AIDS/HIV prevention and awareness was scrapped in lieu of biographical information on Cole Porter.

Pavement: wet
Temperature: 43°
Climate: sunny & cool
Mood: all right

Yesterday, I got several, sporadic, shooting pains in my right ankle after my run. The first one almost made me fall over. Lasted about an hour, then they were gone.

Last night I grimaced briefly as this stabbing pain momentarily afflicted my left foot. The wife asked what was wrong, I described it just as I did now. She looked concerned. I said, "Don't you get those? Just occasional, stabbing pains?"

"No," she said, looking at me as though I were disturbed. "No, I don't."

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 164 lbs. (+1.0)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

1983 Playlist
Everything Counts - Depeche Mode
Human Alchemy - XTC
Power and the Passion * - Midnight Oil
Moon 83 * - The B-52's
Coconut Champagne (Live) - Maynard Ferguson
Trommeltanz (Din Daa Daa) - George Kranz

Monday, February 27, 2017

Run like a polo.

After an extended week I have a day off. We rehearsed last Saturday, and on President's Day. I had pre-show events at the performance this past Saturday. Thankful for some time off ... to do laundry, wash dishes, etc.

But, seriously. It's not even 9:30 AM and I have done those things and the rest of the day is mine. Time to write, relax, and run. Hmn. That should be a on a T-shirt.

Distance: 3.75 miles
Avg. Pace: 7:53
Duration: 29:36
Route: Foest Hill Loop

Blessed cool day. That's it. Getting back to the relaxation part (away from a screen.)

Pavement: dry
Temperature: 45°
Climate: cool
Mood: okay?

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 163 lbs. (-1.0)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

2013 Playlist
Y.A.L.A. - M.I.A.
Brave - Sara Bareilles
Right Action - Franz Ferdinand
Dangerous - Big Data
Applause - Lady Gaga
We Can't Stop - Miley Cyrus
Cool Kids - Echosmith
Walk Us Uptown - Elvis Costello & The Roots

Sunday, February 26, 2017

You've only had to run so far ... so good.

The past two days have been a physical mystery. It was in the seventies on Friday, but I was saddled with a sinus-piercing headache in the morning, and by night I was just weak, weak and tired. I do not know if it was the cumulative effect of moving the set a few times and running pretty much every day, or if I had caught some kind of bug.

Saturday morning, it was the same. Weak, tired, even after a fine night's sleep (a couple of them, to be honest) and a bit queasy after having a simple breakfast. Was I sick? No idea. But another day without running was necessary.

Distance: 3.3 miles
Avg. Pace: 7:54
Duration: 26:05
Route: Forest Hill Loop

Still feeling weak heading out, and yet being outside and moving through the cool air, it was impossible not to go fast. Just felt good. And such a beautiful, sunny day in the park. Looking across the lagoon at the footbridges, hadn't noticed them from that angle before. Just a wonderful place to be.

Pavement: wet
Temperature: 30°
Climate: sunshine
Mood: leaning in

Snowed last night, the morning sun had already melted what was left on the sidewalks.

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 164 lbs. (-1.5)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

Not sure when I can trust the scale. Some mornings it says 167.5, others 162. Changed the battery a week ago. So I try it now and then while I am in the bathrrom until it makes sense.

1982 Playlist
Wham Rap [Social Mix] - Wham!
Jukebox (Don't Put Another Dime) - The Flirts
Jason and the Argonauts - XTC
Pressure - Billy Joel
Lysistrata - Utopia
My Own Way - Duran Duran

Thursday, February 23, 2017

All this aggravation ain't satisfactioning me.

Just another day, just another run. Obsessively moving forward, keeping active in the spring-like weather, peeling through year playlists. Even this year I am on track to break my February run record, and I am not even training for anything.

In 2012, however, I was fighting against snow and cold temperatures, this year it is easy in my shorts and cap. But I do have seven more playlists to get through than I did that year, so there's that.

None of this means anything. Just trying to have something to say.

Distance: 3.3 miles
Avg. Pace: 7:52
Duration: 25:57
Route: Forest Hill Loop

Boy asked the watch Animalympics before heading off to school this morning, the entire thing is available online. Fans of the movie (mostly Gen X'ers who either saw it over and over on HBO in the early 80s, or on the Disney Channel in the early 90s) wonder why it is not available on DVD or for streaming.

Maybe it's all the Asian stereotypes and fat jokes. Since Disney purchased the rights, they have probably decided to shelve it in the United States like they have Song of the South. Not worth the controversy.

Still. That Kit Mambo.

Temperature: 59°
Climate: overcast and humid
Mood: driving

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 165.5 lbs. (+1.0)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

Gained a pound, yes, but only a pound. Went out with the boy the Happy Dog last night we got the hang out and talk about things which was great. But I have consumed so much fat and grease these past several days and I can feel it in my mouth. Can't brush it out. I need some more control.

2002 Playlist
Freeek! - George Michael
Clap Your Hands - They Might Be Giants
A Little Less Conversation - Elvis Presly
Daybreaker - Beth Orton
Sweet Smoke - Mr. Scruff
Music Plus 1 - Cornershop
United States of Whatever *  - Liam Lynch

Babymaking music.

Wednesday, February 22, 2017

The city's warmer by a couple of degrees.

Moving the set yesterday, ooff. I could feel the energy leaving my arms, weakness settling in. Can't imagine doing that every day this year, or ever again. Maybe it would make me stronger ... but then, maybe not.

The writing is lackadaisical, perhaps m morning meeting I am having today with be a motivation. More on that soon, I hope.

Distance: 3.3 miles
Avg. Pace: 7:53
Duration: 26:03
Route: Forest Hill Loop

Brisk, light, just before the rain. Remarkable. The trees, the earth. We just keep running.

Temperature: 55°
Climate: light rain
Mood: fuck you

My daughter's capacity for forgiveness is bottomless. Mine, however, is not.

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 165.5 lbs. (-0-)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

Why eat sensibly all day only to scarf a piece of cold, flavorless pizza right before bed?

1999 Playlist
As - George Michael & Mary J. Blige
Five Fathoms (Kevin Yost Everything and a Groove Mix) - Everything But the Girl
Find My Baby - Moby
Lullaby of Clubland - Everything But the Girl
Stop Breaking Down - The White Stripes
Blame * - Everything But the Girl

Tuesday, February 21, 2017

We're on the move.

Why yo-yo dieting is still better than doing nothing for weight loss
by Sarah Knapton, The Telegraph 2/21/2017

Well, thank God for that, anyway.

Distance: 3.25 miles
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Pavement: dry
Temperature: 57°
Climate: overcast & cool
Mood: all right

Tour season begins, late nights and early mornings. Takes effort to stay on top of exercise, moving sets in and out exhausts me ... only this year my load is much lighter, at least literally. Most days I won't even be going out, it is an entirely autonomous tour.

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 165.5 lbs. (+0.5)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

Glorious day, cool but humid. It will be like spring for the most part for the next ten days.

1979 Playlist
Ain't No Stoppin' Us Now - McFadden & Whitehead
My Sharona - The Knack
Candy-O - The Cars
Another One Bites the Dust - Queen
Making It - David Naughton
Cars - Gary Numan
I Fought the Law - The Clash
The Stranger Song - The Cure

Sunday, February 19, 2017

Every step of the way.

Both of our children have grown an inch and a half since August. So, things have been happening.

The boy and I took a bike/run today, a beautiful spring-like day. I jammed a Bluetooth speaker into the water bottle holder, and we were both able to enjoy that late 60s rhythm and blues.

Distance: 3.25 miles
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Pavement: dry
Temperature: 52°
Climate: sunny!
Mood: good

Wish I had timed that, the boy gets bigger, he can now bike much faster, and does. He paces me. I had to ask him to slow down a couple times. I hope we get to do this a lot in the weeks and months to come. I wish the girl would run with me.

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 165 lbs. (-1.5)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

When are geese suppose to lay their eggs? Because I think they have. It's February.

1969 Playlist
Hook & Sling - Eddie Bo
We Have All The Time In The World - Louis Armstrong
We Got More Soul - Dyke & The Blazers
Time Is Tight - Booker T. & The MG's
Your Good Thing (Is About to End) - Lou Rawls
Baby Please Don't Go - Them
On Her Majesty's Secret Service - John Barry Orchestra
Aquele Abraco - Gilberto Gil
Grits Ain't Groceries (All Around The World) - Little Milton

Saturday, February 18, 2017

I'm running underground.

Thigh pain persists, a burning sensation deep in my right thigh. It is an affliction I generally associate with the winter, and with being off my regimen. Yet I have been exercising most days. This bout began yesterday afternoon, and continued even after my hard evening run. I went to sleep with this feeling, and also woke with it.

This is not meralgia paresthetica, the condition I developed fifteen years ago. That would be on the outside of my leg. Rather, self-diagnosis suggests this is greater trochanteric pain syndrome, which relates to minor tears in the nearby muscles, but perhaps I should ask a doctor.

However, whenever I ask a doctor about conditions like these, the general advice is to take an anti-inflammatory. This is something I have neglected to do.

Distance: 3.25 miles
Avg. Pace: 8:07
Duration: 26:25
Route: Forest Hill Loop

Fewer clothes, dry, safe pavement. We pick up knees, we run, we fly.

Pavement: dry
Temperature: 66°
Climate: clear blue skies
Mood: tired

End of a Saturday work day run, before we go out for the evening. Feeling drained. leg pain, running every day just to keep up. Glad I went out. The breeze was a bit strong heading out, but it was all at my back heading home.

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 166.5 lbs. (+1.5)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

I should eat only vegetables tonight.

1998 Playlist
Flagpole Sitta - Harvey Danger
Rock Is Dead - Marilyn Manson
Rolling - Soul Coughing
Cascades of Colour - Ananda Project
Sexy Boy (Live) - AIR
Jump Jive An' Wail - Brian Setzer Orchestra
Mezzanine - Massive Attack

Friday, February 17, 2017

They say they're running (out of angels.)

Sunset over Forest Hill Park
Still pain down my leg, only now it's both legs. This is not a problem at the moment, it's just a reminder than I am an active man.

Distance: 5.15 miles
Avg. Pace: 7:53
Duration: 40:37
Route: Forest Hill/Boulevard Loop

Temperatures picking up, tomorrow it will be sixty degrees with warm temperatures or at least well-above freezing until at least March. Our new Secretary of the E.P.A. will ensure this trend continues.

Pavement: dry
Temperature: 46°
Climate: cool
Mood: not bad, actually

Shorts and a long-sleeved shirt which feels as though it has chafed me something terrible. All the sweat? Who knows. Running brisk and free through the sunset. Busy weekend ahead, they're all busy, the tour begins next week, rehearsals for Red Onion, White Garlic started last night.

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 165 lbs. (-0-)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

1978 Playlist
Ever Fallen In Love - The Buzzcocks
Got to Get You Into My Life - Earth Wind & Fire
Living In Paradise - Elvis Costello & The Attractions
Strange Town * - The Jam
Truth Hits Everybody * - The Police
Hit Me With Your Rhythm Stick - Ian Dury & The Blockheads
Running Out of Angels - Elvis Costello & The Attractions
Cross Wires - XTC
Radios In Motion - XTC
Safe European Home - The Clash
Shame - Evelyn "Champagne" King
I'm Every Woman - Chaka Khan

Didn't plan to run five miles. But, Jesus Christ, 1978! What didn't you do?

Thursday, February 16, 2017

Warm me up.

Taught two ninety-minute classes in back-to-back at my daughter's school. It was the Macbeth residency, a little banquet scene, some stage combat. I was entirely wrecked after and just couldn't move for about an hour.

It's cold. I'm tired. The national scene is demoralizing. Time for a run.

Distance: 3.25 miles
Avg. Pace: 8:20
Duration: 27:06
Route: Forest Hill Loop

Today is also the day that winter got me. It's cold. I'm cold. And its not even that cold. But I feel it, deeply. It leaves me listless and uninspired.

It was also one year ago today that I last saw my father alive, that has been weighing on me, too.

Pavement: dusty with snow & ice
Temperature: 27°
Climate: cold
Mood: wtf

From enervating to energizing. Still not one hundred percent, but at least I can say I ran, and it was good. At least I am no longer cold. What would I do without it? Seriously, it's a little frightening.

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 165 lbs. (-1.0)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

2004 Playlist
Breathe Me - Sia
Let's Get It Started (Spike Mix) - The Black Eyed Peas
Extraordinary Girl - Green Day
Suddenly I See - KT Tunstall
Hunting Season - Felix da Housecat
Me Plus One - Annie
La-La-Love - Astaire
Air - Owls

Tuesday, February 14, 2017

My beats-per-minute never been the same.

A man my age should not eat Andouille sausage. Like, ever. And that is all I would like to say about that.

Distance: 3.25 miles
Avg. Pace: 7:51
Duration: 25:38
Route: Forest Hill Loop

Broke eight minutes for the first time in forever. Thank you, 1984, thank you, George, for some totally awesome BPM.

Pavement: dry
Temperature: 32°
Climate: cool, sunny
Mood: all right

Decided to put on a sport coat for work today. Tried of looking like a schlub.

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 166 lbs. (+1.0)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

1984 Playlist
I Love You, Suzanne * - Lou Reed
Why [12" Version] - Bronski Beat
Blue Light - David Gilmore
Wake Me Up Before You Go-Go * - Wham!
Another Bridge * - Everything But the Girl
Dance Halls Days [Extended Version] - Wang Chung

Sunday, February 12, 2017

Feeling kind of older.

The hamstring is an issue. Maybe running every day has something to do with it, but my left thigh generally aches. The "string" in my leg, I can feel it like a band of rubber and it has pain. Sitting for any length of time can make my back sore, or my thigh. It is, as I say, a pain.

Distance: 3.25 miles
Avg. Pace: 8:19
Duration: 27:04
Route: Forest Hill Loop

Beautiful, cool morning. So many geese around the lagoon, really pissed one off who did not wish to make way for me on the running path.

Feeling it in my back-end. Forecast is mild for the next ten days, but I feel the need to continue, whenever possible, to store up for when the actual winter might come. In CLE, that might be in May.

Pavement: wet
Temperature: 36°
Climate: cool & cloudy
Mood: all right

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 165 lbs. (0-)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

165 lbs. is kind of where I am supposed to be. I would prefer 160, but 165 is good It is a good place to be. But how do I stay here, or just below it? I have  tendency, like most people, to eat.

I keep salted almonds in the house, and mix a handful of those with a handful of raisins or dried cranberries to keep my mouth occupied and my hunger (it's not really hunger, it's appetite) sated until dinner. Often that works. I would rather have a bag of Doritos. Like a whole, family-sized bag.

1973 Playlist
Love Train - The O'Jays
Dancing With the Moonlight Knight - Genesis
D'yer Mak'er - Led Zeppelin
Pills - New York Dolls
Hooked On a Feeling - Blue Swede
Live & Let Die - Paul McCartney & Wings
Skokian - Hot Butter
Blinded By the Light - Bruce Springsteen

Ladies and gentlemen, Alan Alda. (((Sigh.)))

Saturday, February 11, 2017

In the shadow of the Master Plan.

Never talk to me during "The Jackal."
The boy and I have been binge-watching The West Wing. He has to learn civics from somewhere. The wife finds it depressing, but the show was always a fantasy, and one we can aspire to, and so it remains.

Last night we watched C.J. do the thing.

Distance: 5 miles
Route: Forest Hill/Boulevard Loop
Pavement: wet
Temperature: 45°
Climate: very nice
Mood: working on it

Mmn. Shorts today, which was appropriate, pants would have been far too warm. However, the cold air on my legs are currently wreaking havoc on my knees. Hopefully a hot shower will take care of that, also pain reliever.

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 165 lbs. (-1.0)
Goal: 165 lbs. (achievement unlocked)
Ideal: 160 lbs.

Big plans tonight, the boy and I are going to tackle his room. Long overdue project. If you don't hear from me tomorrow, call the authorities.

1993 Playlist
The Jackal - Ronnie Jordan
Seven Days - Sting
Come To Me * - Bjork
UMF - Duran Duran
High Noon - Kruder & Dorfmeister
Jump Around - House of Pain
Ripcord - Radiohead
Divorce Song - Liz Phair
Too Much Information - Duran Duran

Friday, February 10, 2017

We always end up in a rut.

Anniversaries. We bought the Hamilton cast recording a year ago yesterday (iTunes keeps track of these things) around that time we had the new fireplace installed. The tour opened on Mom's birthday, and then my father died.

No time is the good time for the death of one of your parents. February is a uniquely bad time for it to happen.

Cold today, didn't wish to run, but my right hip hurts. Sitting yesterday was a (literal) pain. Have to keep moving, no matter what.

Distance: 1.75 miles
Avg. Pace: 8:08
Duration: 14:18
Route: Two times around the block.

Kept close to the house, almost took off for the forest, but it's too cold. Taking the boy to work today, busy busy business.

Pavement: snowy
Temperature: 16°
Climate: cold
Mood: driven

Lost eight pounds since New Year's. Slow and steady from here out.

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 166 lbs. (-1.0)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

Another anniversary -- it was ten years ago in early February that I began creating playlists by year to interest and motivate me to run in sub-freezing temps. The first was for 1983, which I generally regarded as the best year in popular music, ever. I have since changed my mind.

2010 Playlist
Compared to What? - John Legend & The Roots
On Melancholy Hill - Gorillaz
Dynamite - Taio Cruz
Something Good Can Work - Two Door Cinema Club

Wednesday, February 08, 2017

If you've got something to say, why don't you say it?

Lisa and I will be trading off directing duties this morning. It will be helpful to use a different part of my brain for a while. Still can't decide what to write next. Flip-flopping through worlds and ideas and emotions. Not sure which way to turn. Last Sunday Carol said, write what you don't know. I have tried that without confidence, perhaps she has given me permission.

Distance: 3.3 miles
Avg. Pace: 8:02
Duration: 26:30
Route: Forest Hill Loop

Rage tweet headache. Went to sleep with it, woke up with it. But as long as it is above freezing, I must hit the pavement.

Pavement: wet
Temperature: 34°
Climate: overcast & cool
Mood: not bad, considering

Brisk, lovely morning. Brisk run. Thinking about the next race. I have no idea what that is, either.

Hey. No more headache.

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 167 lbs. (-0.5)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

1990 Playlist
Can I Kick It? - Tribe Called Quest
Something To Save - George Michael
Groove Is In The Heart - Deee-Lite
Dom Me! - Bel Biv DeVoe
Steppin' to the A.M. - 3rd Bass
Being Boring - Pet Shop Boys

Tuesday, February 07, 2017

Fear in the air, tension everywhere.

More protests, last night against the "so-called President's" pick for Education Secretary. Paul and I headed out to the Celebrezze Building (that's where our Republican Senator has his local office) to join I don't know how many people in shouting Vote No Devos for the cameras and the supportive car horns of homegoers.

Distance: about 3 miles
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Pavement: wet, some ice
Temperature: 48°
Climate: rain!
Mood: headachy

Rainy run today, shorts with a rain jacket and cap. Very pleasant except for dodging the large puddles. Wish I had my stats, the mapping program cocked up again, second time in a week.

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 167.5 lbs. (+1.0)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

That is what happens when you eat macaroni and cheese right before bed.

1970 Playlist
Ball of Confusion (That's What the World Is Today) * - The Temptations
Little Green Bag - George Baker
Rock & Roll [Alternate Mix] - Velvet Underground
Domino - Van Morrison
In the Summertime * - Mungo Jerry
That's All Right [Live] - Elvis Presley
SUper Bad (Part 1 & 2) - James Brown

Monday, February 06, 2017

Set me free, set me out on the run.

Football as an American political metaphor. Okay, whatever. I'm still in it for the Lady Haha.

Distance: 3.25 miles
Avg. Pace: 8:51
Duration: 28:47
Route: Forest Hill Loop

Left hamstring is irritated, clumps of snow caused some awkward landings and twists. Still, feels great to get out. Air is clean and cool, I'm cold for about ten seconds and then very comfortable Love the park.

Pavement: shoveled, dry. un-shoveled, crispy, treacherous snow and ice.
Temperature: 25°
Climate: cold
Mood: I'm thinking.

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 166.5 lbs. (-0-)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

2009 Playlist
Bad Romance - Lady Gaga
Paparazzi - Lady Gaga
Empire State of Mind - Jay-Z ft. Alicia Keys
Heads Will Roll - Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Something Good '09 - Utah Saints
Mute (Jokes of the Scene Remix) - The Brash
Ghosts 'N' Stuff - Deadmau5 ft. Rob Swire

Sunday, February 05, 2017

I've got a habit and it's all mine.

Best year in popular music, hands down.
Miserable few days, very, very cold and I could feel it, deep in my muscles. Little time available to run, less interest. I have been driving forward since New Year's but the past few days, just ugh.

There are those times when I simply do not wish to run. I know that is hard to believe.

Distance: 5 miles
Route: Forest Hill/Boulevard Loop
Pavement: clogged with snow
Temperature: 41°
Climate: nice
Mood: whatever

Perfect day to go long. I have time, the weather is not unpleasant. Shame about the sidewalks; my knees have been acting up this week. Perhaps it's the cold. I don't have serious knee issues (one operation almost ten years ago notwithstanding) though I have for brief periods of time been given to debilitating pain,

There was a week, perhaps, twenty-five year ago (yikes) in February or March, 1992 when I used a cane for a few days, one or the other of my knees hurt so terribly. Seriously, a cane. It was either than or lean on everything to get around. Then the pain just went away. Weird.

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 166.5 lbs. (-0.5)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

My mapping program turned itself off during the middle of the run, which is a shame, I was curious about the stats. But it was five miles. Five miles on a Sunday, all right.

1989 Playlist
Biting My Nails  - Renegade Soundwave
My Brave Face - Paul McCartney
Love Shack - The B-52's
The Cactus - 3rd Bass
I Want It All - Queen
Buddy [12" Remix] - De La Soul ft. Tribe Called Quest, Jungle Bros., Monie Love & Queen Latifah
Partyman -Prince
Sin (Long) - Nine Inch Nails
King For a Day (12" Version) - XTC

Wednesday, February 01, 2017

Don't run back inside, darling.

And some mornings I feel entirely listless, like I never want to run again. Then I realize I have been up for three hours and haven't had a thing to eat.

Distance: 1.75 miles
Avg. Pace: 8:41
Duration: 15:14
Route: Neighborhood Run

Also, I always believed I needed to wear think socks to run, for fear of blisters and callouses. But you get those on long runs, why not wear thick, warm socks on winter runs? Or even on a short warm weather run, they're more comfortable! Thick socks. Mmn.

Pavement: wet & patchy with black ice
Temperature: 34°
Climate: cold
Mood: head down

Short run, much to do. Treacherous, slippery. Little steps.

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 167 lbs. (-0.5)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

1975 Playlist
That's The Way (I Like It) - KC & The Sunshine Band
The Hustle - Van McCoy & the Soul City Symphony
Rhiannon - Fleetwood Mac
Thunder Road - Bruce Springsteen & The E Street Band

Tuesday, January 31, 2017

Self-sufficience please, and get to work.

Let me spell out my name.
Twenty runs in January. A tie! Why run so much? Fear? Anxiety? Because the weather has been mostly good, probably.

Kids have school off again today, while I must get to the office. Tour rehearsals have begun, and there is much catching up to do.

Distance: 2.75 miles
Avg. Pace: 9:04
Duration: 24:56
Route: Neighborhood Run

This report is deceptive. There are banks of unshoveled snow, the first part of my run was like something out of Rocky, picking my knees up to my waist. I was pretty sure I would keep this to one lap, but once I was off the main boulevard I ran in the street and decided I could run the neighborhood streets until I was satisfied.

Pavement: like ice cream
Temperature: 27°
Climate: cold & snow
Mood: determined

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 167.5 lbs. (+0.5)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

1995 Playlist
Underground - Ben Folds Five
Army of Me - Bjork
Gerbil * - Filter
Les Ailes - Khaled
Alice Childress - Ben Folds Five
Geek Stink Breath - Green Day
Car Song - Elastica

Ben Folds. Elder statesman, like the Alex Chilton of the Millennial Generation. I don't know what to say about that.

Sunday, January 29, 2017

Everybody going out of their skins.

Snowy day. We have RECEPTION this afternoon. Outreach tour rehearsal begin tomorrow, and also our daughter turns fourteen.

Things are horrible. Things are wonderful.

Distance: 3.25 miles
Avg. Pace: 8:09
Duration: 26:32
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Pavement: snowy
Temperature: 28°
Climate: snow
Mood: fuck this

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 167 lbs. (-0-)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

2015 Playlist
Wait For It - Leslie Odom Jr.
Ship To Wreck - Florence + The Machine
Disappointing - John Grant ft. Tracey Thorn
S.O.B. - Nathaniel Rateliff & The Night Sweats
Go - Chemical Brothers ft. Q-Tip
Snakeskin - Deerhunter
Know Now - Public Image Limited

Ah, yes. Twenty-fifteen. Things were so much simpler then.

Saturday, January 28, 2017

God, save the people.

One new thing I have been doing is waiting until I am hungry before I eat breakfast. We adults get up early most mornings, and traditionally I would eat then. Now I wait until I am truly interested in food and then I seem to choose what I crave and not just what I think I should eat or that I am used to eating.

Usually I eat granola and yogurt. This morning I wanted half a bagel, sunbutter and banana. It's what my body was interested in. This seems to be working for me.

Distance: 3.75 miles
Avg. Pace: 8:13
Duration: 30:54
Route: Neighborhood Loop

Priorities. An open Saturday for me, but it took two hours to sort and fold all of the laundry that has accumulated ... not counting socks. Do I continue doing housework, this list is long, or do I take a run?

What do you think?

Pavement: dusted with snow
Temperature: 28°
Climate: cold
Mood: concerned

Arduous, slipping on light snow.Cold but not cold enough to keep from heavy sweating, that was some good work. Ran past the pit that used to be the site of the Center-Mayfield. Also, a Chinese restaurant, barbershops and salons, and the Looney Tunes daycare.

Ran past that place countless times, saw myself reflected in the mirrored windows in all variety of gear, and many shapes and sizes, watched myself go gray. The windows prevented me from seeing in but who peers into a daycare center, that is creepy. But I did wonder about the children, what they were doing, how they were doing, were they learning, were they happy.

My own children had the privilege of going to Montessori school and they thrived, because we could afford it. Now those children (and yes, I know, over the years they were always different children) where do they go? Where do their caregivers go?

Sometimes I think this country is one big hole in the ground.

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 167 lbs. (-0.5)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

1974 Playlist
For the Love of Money - The O'Jays
Back In NYC - Genesis
The Wall Street Shuffle - 10cc
In The Cage - Genesis
Save the People - Steve Nathan
Rock and Roll, Hoochie Koo - Rick Derringer
Waterloo - ABBA
Jackie Blue - Ozark Mountain Daredevils

Thursday, January 26, 2017

Now they call me Mr. Bitterness.

Every day another national indignity. Congress just wanted to erase the legacy of Barack Obama, this guy is seriously doing all the bad things that lead to authoritarian government. Censoring facts, oppressing the weak, aggrandizing the self.

The question is, are our democratic systems strong enough to fight the power? The Internet has proven to be the most powerful tool in this war of misinformation, can it be harnessed for truth? Is that even possible?

Distance: 3.6 miles
Avg. Pace: 7:54
Duration: 28:28
Route: Forest Hills Loop

My hamstring continues to irritate, on the left side, all the way down. It's in my thigh, in my calf. Sometimes it sings quite loudly. Cold weather exacerbates the condition. It's a drag. I keep massaging my leg in public, it's not a good look for me.

Pavement: very light precipitation
Temperature: 36°
Climate: cool, wet
Mood: bitter

Brisk, light run. Feeling stronger. The cold does not bother me, got pretty sweaty and warm, actually. Not below freezing, not yet. We'll get there.

Seventeen runs in January already? That's a tie for second place and it's not even the girl's birthday yet. Ran twenty in January, 2012. Can I make that before Tuesday? Mmmaybe.

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 167.5 lbs. (-1.5)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

1994 Playlist
Voodoo Lady - Ween
Welcome to Paradise - Green Day
Sure Shot - The Beastie Boys
Live Forever - Oasis
Mr. Bitterness - Soul Coughing
Get Me - Everything But the Girl
Chewbacca - Supernova
Mr. Self Destruct - Nine Inch Nails

Tuesday, January 24, 2017

Now I've got the floor.

I got my ...
Packing my lunch is not just about saving money, it's about eating well. Monday I forgot my lunch, lunch I packed and then left on the counter. So I got sushi, which is all well and good, but I would be deceiving myself to suggest a lunch portion of sashimi with an entire California roll is "light."

That evening the wife had prepared a delicious meal, a tray baked chicken dish. It wouldn't have been a bad day's consumption except for all the cookies at the first reading of my new play.

Little obsessed by eating these days, apparently.

Distance: 3.25 miles
Avg. Pace: 8:18
Duration: 27:01
Route: Forest Hill Loop

After the rain, wet and cool. One more day of Strawberry Spring (tomorrow) and then it will return to something like winter.

Good run, brisk, breathing hard. There is a deep pain in the back end, the boy and I need to engage in stretches together, I need to make a plan for that. He complains about aches. I know he is about to enter puberty, he's moving in and I am moving out. We both need to take care of ourselves.

Pavement: wet
Temperature: 34°
Climate: cool & damp
Mood: busy moving

Baseline: 174 lbs.
Today: 169 lbs. (+0.5)
Goal: 165 lbs.
Ideal: 160 lbs.

2014 Playlist
Batches & Cookies - Lizzo ft. Sophia Eris
Daffodils - Mark Ronson ft. Kevin Parker
Dancehall Domine - The New Pornographers
Uptown Funk - Mark Ronson ft. Bruno Mars
Two Bodies - Flight Facilities ft. Emma Louise
My Type - Saint Motel