My heart beats faster when I think of all the signs.

I am not right. Last night we had sushi, mine included seafood, which was cooked or processed, so I thought I was safe. And while I did not have an anaphylactic reaction. my belly swelled up like a balloon and I could feel my pulse in my chest, and my wrists, and my temples.

My belly pushed out past my rib cage last night, also because I eat too much. I eat all the time. I am back into that, I must put something in my mouth at all times phase. These things happen. Control is possible, but it is far easier at work to sit at my desk, meditate, and keep on. There is so much food in this house, and not good food.

I do not feel great. I will take a run this morning, but try not to push myself too hard. A few times around the block. The weather is perfect.

Distance: 2 miles
Duration: 19:27
Pace: 9:43
Route: Twice around the block.

On my first loop I was hailed by a passing truck, they wanted to know where a local street was. I stopped, we were distanced enough. I checked my phone, this is my neighborhood, I was irritated not to know off the top of my head, but of course they were grateful. It was a very pleasant, happy exchange.

Temperature: 55°
Climate: blue sky, light, puffy clouds
Mood: better, now
Weight: 194 lbs. (+2.5)

The weather is perfect, and I am not. I am also not in training. I am also not injured. I can run. I do not hurt, not in my back, hips, knees, ankles, anywhere. Pain comes and so far, it also goes.

What I ran every other morning, consistently? It is a thing I can do. I am awake, the air is cool and clear. I will try to eat more conservatively. There are far more better things to do than eat.

What's That Lyric?
Dying - XTC

The 155-159 BPM playlist totally slaps.

Can't wait until the weekend comes!

On average, a dozen people read this blog. Unless I post something on social media, between ten and twenty people read each individual post. That's enough to assume they are all bots. No offense to those one or two of you who may be human.

You may have noticed I have had nothing to say for about a week. That is because my mother was in the hospital, I won't go into details, she's fine now, really. Fine and at home, which is good.

But I have never wanted to run a marathon less than I want to run Chicago on Sunday. I haven't had nor taken the opportunity to train properly. My long runs have been painful, and I'm not better prepared now than I was three weeks ago.

Distance: 4 miles
Duration: 34:32
Pace: 8:37
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 62°
Climate: cool. nice.
Mood: all right
Stretches: yes
Water: yes

That, and I am depressed. Unfocused. Stressed out.

There is good news. I had an allergy test yesterday, and I am not allergic to seafood. I am allergic to the histamines that can develop in seafood that has been sitting around for a few days, so. Maybe no more raw seafood, no more sushi.

Tomorrow I meet with a new doctor, which I hope is a fruitful relationship. I need a physical. I am concerned about my sugar intake. Yesterday I wrote a play about it.

The weather in Chicago this week should be ideal. Dry, cool. Fifty degrees. I will be prepared for that.

That's it. That's all I got.

What's That Lyric?
Meccanik Dancing (Oh We Go!) - XTC

Man in the making.

New Exercise Guidelines: The American Heart Association Has Announced That That Guy Who Runs At Like 9 P.M. Every Night Can Cool It - Clickhole 9/28/2017

That used to be me.

The day in question.

After that horrible unpleasantness on Wednesday, where I attempted to run but could not breathe, I decided to let the drugs take their course. I was able to get to work and accomplish basic tasks, but by Friday evening I was just not in the mood to do anything. I spent most of Saturday in bed.

I believe it was the Famotidine that really put me out. They were prescribed twice daily, and the side effects included: fatigue, dizziness, weakness, diarrhea, mood changes, insomnia, muscle pain, headache, joint pain, and dry mouth.

There are other possible side effects, those are the ones I experienced.

The air has cooled, and I we should be gearing up for long distances and great things and I have been sidelined and depressed. I do need to connect with a new doctor, to screen for whatever allergy it is I have developed at this stage in my life.

Distance: 3.25 miles
Duration: 28:35
Pace: 8:47
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 77°
Climate: delightful
Mood: overcome
Stretches: yes
Water: yes

Did it. Felt amazing. So grateful.

What's That Lyric?
Number One - Chaz Jankel

Listening to Erie Effusion on WRUW!

Week Nine Total: 6.5 miles
Total To Date: 184 miles

Put your feet into the groove.

Not my skin. But it looked like this.

Hi. I'm a mess. A three-mile run was in order for Monday morning, but I pushed so hard on Sunday, I was up most of the night with aches. Didn't get up to take pain reliever until five am and then crashed for almost another two hours, so that was nice.

However, I did not plan to eat something at lunch which gave me a severe allergic reaction. I mean, it wasn't severe, severe. I wasn't having trouble breathing and I wasn't itching. But my pulse suddenly went up, I developed blotchy red skin, I could feel my heart throbbing in my ears.

Co-workers took me to urgent care, which was very, very wonderful. Thank you, Stephanie, and Kelly, for taking such good care of me.

Did you know ..? The Clinic has an urgent care facility at East 4th Street? Enjoy nationally renown celebrity chefs and the check into the Cleveland Clinic! They were awesome, too, by the way. Took great care of me.

Distance: 3.25 miles
Duration: 30:18
Pace: 9:19
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 70°
Climate: bit muggy
Mood: not bad, considering
Stretches: yes
Water: yes

This morning I noticed the sun rising later. No hat, no sunglasses at six in the morning. Wasn't sure the night before if I would run today, either, but here we are.

Bit winded, weak, not too weak. Great run, very humid already, before sunrise. Did not stop. Saw a beautiful heron in the park, I love that guy.

What's That Lyric?
Street Dance - Break Machine

Baseline: 179.5 lbs.
Today: 169.5 lbs. (+4)
Goal: 160 lbs.

I have eaten a lot the past couple of days. After the race I just wanted to eat. Yesterday I didn't feel hungry as I started to recover from the reaction, but once I started I found it hard to stop. After all, it wasn't food poisoning. I kept thinking that it was, and expecting to vomit or something, and I kept reminding myself that wasn't it.

Today, I pack my lunch. No grocery store sushi for me!