I hit the bottom.

It's like I have this lingering ugh. I have been exhausted, you know? That and I sobbed like a lost child on Friday, like I haven't cried in a very long time. It was brought on by Spit of You. It's always a song.

But yeah, strange. What does the anniversary of a death mean, anyway? A time for remembrance, but as I said, it is also a reminder of the decade just passed. I did a lot of thinking on Thursday. Friday was just emotionally draining.

Or I'm just tired.

Distance: 3 miles

Duration: 27:25

Then, this morning, as I was "detailing" the Element (the wife has gone out of town for the week) I struck my head on the rear open door. Had my head down, walked my full weight into it and now I have a half-inch wide gash across my forehead.

I have never minded being bald. I first noticed the pattern of hair loss when I was twenty-three and that was a surprise but I got over it pretty fast. I mean, I don't like insults or, as some people call them, "jokes" not because I am embarrassed for being bad but because, like most people, I care to be insulted. Body shaming comes in all forms, just like people, and excuse me for sounding like a wounded white man, but bald jokes do seem like the last acceptable form of body shaming.

No, the one thing that has always made me unhappy about not having hair is when I hit my head and there's a mark or a scab, I am very self-conscious about that. It is a visible sign of clumsiness, I feel it makes me look like a stupid guy. I have a scar at the top of my head from repeated abrasions and scrapes. And there's no hair to hide it.

Route: rec center
Temperature: 30°
Climate: snowy
Mood: depressed

Twenty years ago on this date, February 22, 2006, I had just had my first physical in six years. We ate dessert those days, and often. Probably came with having children. Sweet, little children. We rarely have a dessert any more, they are for occasional splurges.

It's also my first mention of Netflix, which was, at that time, solely a DVD rental-by-mail service. It was surprising to learn they were still doing that until three years ago. Last movie they ever shipped? True Grit (2010). Thank goodness it wasn't something embarrassing, huh?

2001 Playlist

Les Fleur - 4hero ft. Carina Andersson

Superheroes - Daft Punk 

Point of View Point - Cornelius

Exquisite Corpse from “Hedwig and the Angry Inch” OMPS 

Breathe - Télépopmusik ft. Angela McCluskey

Packt Like Sardines in a Crushd Tin Box - Radiohead

Face to Face - Daft Punk

Stretches: yes
Water: yes
Weight: 161 lbs. (-1.0)

Back to the gym. It was a good week, and I'm glad that I thought to write that. The running was good.

Planks: yes
Push-ups: yes

Sit-Ups: yes

My head is full of space junk

Eleven days since my last run. I have developed kinks in both knees, and a hip. Entropy, man, get a clue. The good news is the ideas are coming, the words flow, I am motivated, inspired and it feels good to be alive. The bad news is ... well, you can see what the bad news is.

I had my first complete physical exam last in four years. I am in excellent shape. My blood work is awesome, my cholesterol is very good, my weight, good, ekg, lungs, musculature inside and out, I am in fine shape. Could use more Vitamin D, but my wife says that's what everyone is saying these days.

Recent Acquisitions Playlist
Space Junk '97 - Wang Chung
Teenage Dream - Katy Perry
Sympathy For The Devil - The Rolling Stones
Get It Get It - Girl Talk
Come (Live) - Queue Up
Zombie Nation (Dave Clarke Remix) - Kernkraft 400

WARNING: Horse-eating Zombies


Distance: 3.25 miles
Temperature: 61º
Weather: cool & lovely
Weight: 166 lbs.

One hundred and sixty-six pounds? How does he do it! It's simple really - I eat anything. Anything at all. And we're in holiday season. The office will have a new basket of cookies, chocolate from the guys who publish our programs, there will be pleasant odors coming from everywhere. Can I resist? Will I exercise more? Who knows! Stay tuned and find out.