You got me running through the turnstile.

Thursday morning I started getting this low-grade anger as I drove across town and I was like, nah. I'm getting that prescription back.

Distance: 3 miles

Duration: 25:05

For around twenty days I have been consistently 160 pounds -- and I mean consistently. Usually, my weight fluctuates from day to day. This consistency is, I believe, the result of not eating after dinner. That is where the matter comes into my system and stays overnight. It's never something particularly healthy, nothing "green" but always "orange."  

Route: Rec Center
Mood: maintaining
Stretches: yes
Water: yes

Weight: 160 lbs.

We're back on track (heh) running every other day. We are well again.

2022 Playlist

Power Station - Cory Wong

Here to Forever - Death Cab for Cutie

Wild Child - Black Keys

Postman - Toro y Moi

Welcome to My Island - That Freaky White Girl

Hi-Fidelity - Lava la Rue ft. Biig Piig 

Telluride - Jordan Conrath

Music for a Sushi Restaurant - Harry Styles

Shatter - Maggie Rogers 

Clock’s running.

Runner's World, 3/3/2025

When I was a young man I might ask myself, when did I run last? Then I started keeping this blog, and now I know. And that's it.

Distance: 3 miles

Duration: 24:11

Ran out of sertraline, having difficulty renewing. Should I lay off the stuff for a while? I don't think so. But then, what if I tried?

Three miles. No stops.

Route: Rec Center
Mood: ?
Stretches: yes
Water: yes

Weight: 160 lbs.

2018 Playlist

Don't Lose Ur Head (166 BPM) - Christina Modestou (from "Six")

Hollywood - Gorillaz ft. Snoop Dogg & Jamie Principle

Heaven On Their Minds - Brandon VictorDixon (from “Jesus Christ Superstar”) 

This Must Be the Place (Naïve Melody) - David Byrne (from “American Utopia”)

Television - Idles

5 Out of 6 - Dessa

Ripping through these playlists. Onto the twos!

Heartbeats sounding.

That springtime conundrum. Do I run in the morning, when it is best for me, or wait until it is sixty degrees, some time in the afternoon? Should I run this morning, and then again when it is sixty degrees but before it drops back down to twenty degrees on Thursday?

Distance: 3 miles

Duration: 26:04
Route: rec center
Mood: angsty
Stretches: yes
Water: yes

Weight: 160 lbs.

So, anyway. The Rec Center. I have a lot of anxiety today ... is it because I didn't take my meds last night? Is there a possible correlation?

2008 Playlist

Golden Age - TV on the Radio

Nine In the Afternoon - Lincoln! In the Bardo

Full Moon - Black Ghosts

Use Somebody - Kings of Leon

Detroit - Black Gold

Echoes Round the Sun - Paul Weller

So What - Pink

Blind - Hercules & Love Affair

Take a step now.

Grateful thanks, Q.

Lying awake, fretting about the world, is I thing I do not like to do. And since the election, I have literally been drugging myself. The sertraline has its own soporific effects. occasionally I take melatonin. During the lockdown I took melatonin a lot, way too much. Even now if I have it more than one night in a row it makes the mornings very challenging.

Then there's the cannabis. There's this hybrid I picked up in Maine that just knocks me out. But that's the thing, it just knocks me out. I can watch a movie or read, I just want to go to sleep. There are other strains for that kind of activity, and I sleep well then, too.

But. Can I just sleep? Like, just have normal uninduced rest? And if so, when?

Distance: 3.1 miles

Duration: 28:57
Pace: 9:20

I actually wrote that a few days ago, and have experimented with uninduced sleep the past two nights, and they have been successful. I just rest. Long days, active days, followed by rest. Avoiding the socials has been a great help. Breaking bad habits. I don't feel I am missing anything.

Quincy Jones Playlist

Soul Bossa Nova (156 BPM)

Love Is in Control (Finger on the Trigger) - Donna Summer

Theme from "Sanford & Son"

Come Together - Brothers Johnson

Billie Jean - Michael Jackson

I Can't Help It - Michael Jackson

I'll Be Good to You - Ray Charles & Chaka Khan

Give Me the Night - George Benson

Thanks, Mr. Jones! That was a brisk and joy filled run.

Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 51°
Climate: nice & cool
Mood: good
Stretches: yes
Water: yes

Pain Reliever: TBD

For the record, I am holding fast at 170 lbs. I am not trying to "diet" I am simply being mindful, as they say. Recording the intake in Noom. Learning about the calories, the good, the bad, and the empty.  

The overgrown super shit.

This time, it's back pain. A pain by my right shoulder blade, caused by stress and anxiety, and I suppose, a lack of regular exercise. It's been a while since I have been stressed like this, and I wonder if it is due to the fact that I have stopped taking Zoloft. I was sidelined by this pain for most of the week.

Distance: 3.1 miles

Duration: 32:58
Pace: 10:38

Route: Forest Hill Loop

Temperature: 34°
Climate: dusk, cool
Mood: all right

 

2002 Playlist

My Baby's Taking Me Home - Sparks

Lessons Learned From Rocky I to Rocky III - Cornershop

Must Be Dreaming - Frou Frou

Smile - Telepopmusik

Freeek! - George Michael

Die Another Day - Madonna

Spectral Mornings - Cornershop

What was 2002? Still in mourning. End of my first year as an actor-teacher. A return visit to NYC following 9/11. Expecting a new baby. My wife concentrating on her first Masters degree.

 
Stretches: yes
Abdominals: 90 sec.
Water: yes

By the way, I have resumed taking Zoloft. It makes a difference.

Lord I feel like I'm, like I'm losing it.

Back on the road. The wife and I are taking a "drying off" period, as far as I am concerned, summer is over. Journeys are complete and it is time to concentrate on work. Work work, school work. And so we will drink less, or not at all. Because quarantine has been excessive, vacation even more so.

This morning I felt a rise in my chest. The low throbbing feeling. I can feel it in my abdomen. Is it high blood pressure? Something else? No idea. I have had success in the past by laying off the mix of sertraline and alcohol, I think. I'm not sure.

But running feels good, so.

Distance: 3 miles
Duration: 30:29
Pace: 10:09
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 79°
Climate: sunny & hot
Mood: all right?
Weight: 182 lbs. (-0-)

I gained no added pounds on vacation!

What's That Lyric?
Don't Wanna Go the Other Way - Cody Chesnutt

First 5K

I have been taking Zoloft (sertraline) since I completed the Chicago marathon. A great deal of my current anxiety was triggered by the loss of my mother, having lost her I am not sure if I need to continue taking this medication. On the other hand, that's probably because the medication makes me feel all right.

The last time I took an antidepressant was during the year 2011, a year I gained weight and ran half as much, check it and see. And I have again gained weight and have little to no interest in running. Thankfully, I have a son who has recently come into his own physical fitness routine, as an aspiring high school wrestler, and asks me to run with him. And I say yes.

Today he ran his first 5K, and I ran one, too.

Distance: 3.2 miles
Duration: 34:00
Pace: 10:40
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 39°
Climate: sunny, cool
Mood: good
Weight: 183.5 lbs.