Thursday, July 09, 2009

Cool summer

Hottest. Shakespeare photo. Ever.

I do wish I could see Twelfth Night, I hear it is good. Nice cast. Fun. First time I saw Shakespeare at the Delacourt was in 1992 (I waited in line all day in 1990 to see Denzel play Richard III, but then it was rained out) to see Elizabeth McGovern in As You Like It. Doesn't matter who is playing Rosalind, I hate that play.

Still and all, Jonathan Goff being torn apart by harpies? I am there!

Listening to: PODRUNNER Classic - Pocket Rocket (141 BPM)

Distance: 3.25 miles
Temperature: 57º
Weather: cool & humid
Weight: 153.5 lbs.

What a cool ... cool summer. Not complaining, we have not had the air conditioner going since last September.

When our first child died, we adopted an Asian small-clawed otter at the Cle Met Zoo. The next year we were invited to Zoo Parents' Night. The zoo was open late on the second Wednesday of July and those who had adopted animals were invited for viewing at duck. There were (usually terrible) live bands, docents with animals or dead parts of animals, it was laid back, cool, uncrowded, and extremely pleasant.

Sometime in the past few years it has turned into Zoo Friends Night, which is just stupid. I have no idea what their guest list is like, but from all appearances anyone can get in. The place is packed, and instead of that being just like an ordinary Saturday, we are all arriving - and leaving - at the same time. It took a half-hour to get up 25th Street, and an hour to leave the parking lot.

I am all for free admission. And we will keep adopting the otters. But they need to stop advertising this evening as something special.

Tuesday, July 07, 2009

daddyrunsfast.com

Happy surprise yesterday, out of the blue an old high school friend told me he had donated the URL daddyrunsfast.com. So, thank you, Dennis B.!

What Might Pengo See at the Fringe?



Take two - now with video! Just pretend they are talking about daddyrunsfast.com.

Some Editing and Some Theme Music
Jean Ann Douglass
Director: Jean Ann Douglass
With diaries replaced by tell-all YouTube channels, three people discover themselves in an increasingly complicated web of narcissistic self-marketing. If only we could control our lives the way we control our online presence.
1h 15m Local Brooklyn, NY Multi-Media Comedy
Staycation: Working Vacation My NYC Story

Listening to: PODRUNNER Classic - Jackhammer (180 BPM)

Distance: 3.25 miles
Temperature: 60º
Weather: cool & humid
Weight: 155 lbs.

Why is a cool summer's morning in Cleveland so much hotter than a warm summer's day in Athens?

And why, Pengo, are you running every day? Because. As of Tuesday, July 7, 2009 - I can.

Monday, July 06, 2009

How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love the Summer

WHY SO TENSE, PENGO???

I got a lot on my plate right now. For real. Not least of which is spearheading a summer arts camp for 50 9-13 year-olds (say what?) using only Scotch tape, 6 tongue depressors and my wits. But my wits are sharper these days than they have been for a couple years.

For real.

However, they are great kids - at least half of them were in the same camp with me last year - our staff is excellent and we have some fabulous ideas planned.

I leave town in a little under two weeks, so this is my plan for the next nine working days.

Monday - Friday
5:00 Rise & Run
7:00 Gather necessary materials for camp
7:30 Depart for camp
8:30 Arrive at camp
9:00 Camp
2:00 End of camp day, meet with instructors
2:30 Head to office
3:00 Write grants
5:00 This week: Head home, be Dad.
Next week: Head to Ali's, rehearse
10:00 Clean house, plan for tomorrow
11:30 Read
12:00 Sleep

"Being Dad" should include painting the kids' playroom, keeping the yard tame, reading books, and laundry. It's summer! I should be able to do everything!

If I can keep my head above water for nine (working) days, I get to go to Bermuda.

Listening to: PODRUNNER Classic - Countermeasures (151 BPM)

Distance: 3.25 miles
Temperature: 61º
Weather: cool & humid
Weight: 158 lbs.

I do not drink enough water. End of story.

Sunday, July 05, 2009

pathetic and sad.


Good thing we went to the Athens fireworks, which were on Friday night. Last night it was rainy, rainy, rainy and we did not care to leave the homestead. Grilling was successful. So was drinking, and I am surprised that I went down at 1 AM (!!!) to wake up at 8 AM, clear-headed and ready to play Candyland and Chutes and Ladders with the girl.

Today we go home. Tomorrow, we resume the fear.

Distance: 4.25 miles
Temperature: 67º
Weather: cool & damp

What to do when you are 26 going on 27, losing your hair, you are the middle of a divorce (proper legal term for our situation and much more accurate: disillusion) saddled with mortgage payments and a job serving at Pizzaria Uno?

Make a mix tape!

pathetic and sad (1995)
sour times - portishead
the sweetest taboo - sade
waiting for that day - george michael
in between days - the cure
losing my religion - r.e.m.
snowman * - xtc
consider this - filter
policy of truth - depeche mode
good - better than ezra
secret world - peter gabriel

(yeah that's right)

Saturday, July 04, 2009

really pathetic.

The natural sedatives released through the act of running are a powerful addiction. I mean, exhausting yourself is its own form of sedation, but that's not what I am talking about, I can be exhausted and anxious. I am referring to endorphins, or whatever they are which make it possible for me to get through my day with an easy, focused mind.

Thursday night, and yesterday morning, I was miserable. There is simply too much going on for me to be conifdent and comfortable. How can I relax, here in the most relaxing of places, when I have less than a month to find all the necessary pieces for the Aug. 1 performance, there are postcards to be printed and shipped for the fringe, summer arts camp begins on Monday, and there is a constant parade of final reports and grant proposals due from now until, well ... there are always grant proposals and final reports due.

I went running, and it all slowed down. My mind was settled. I could be happy, thoughtful, chatty, pleasant, and buy a new pair of jeans at Goodwill.

This morning is simply gorgeous. Coffee and toast, on the porch, cool but sunny, kids on the swing, shooting pool in the garage, the girl took a sunshower with grandma. I have a small pain in my head. I try to think slowly, to relax. It won't happen, not easily. This is our second full day - we don't have to leave until tomorrow, but it feels like Sunday afternoon now, I am not here, I am then and I am wasting this glorious opportunity.

The wife and MP are off seeing great-grandma, who keeps falling down these days. When they return I have been promised a run.

Is it physical exercise, or the act of running itself? The act of running, in spite of the repetition (out to the rec center, water and pee, then back the same way) creates the feeling of progress. I am moving towards something. Or running away from it. That feels good, too.

Distance: 4.25 miles
Temperature: 73º
Weather: humid & overcast. Herons on the Hocking.

Before too much time had gone by, I was already making plans for a second tape of songs that made me miserable (to be entitled "more pathetic") but I set that aside. Life was very busy at the time, or at least it felt that way. Rehearsals until 11 two nights a week, performances until 12:30 am two nights a week (that doesn't count drinking) leaving three nights a week to be with my new wife, three nights to make up for all the absent nights. That takes work, too.

It wasn't until the following spring, when I was on the verge of an actual mental breakdown that I put together another mix, this one swinging from contemporary songs to those from my adolscence ... or about adolescence. Most of them have a either a seriously dark, sexual tone to them (violent in cases) or just a deep, childish melancholy.

I have to remind myself that I put together this collection BEFORE I started a long-distance relationship with the person I am married to now. But it became my personal soundtrack for that time. Crazy.

(Again, this is not the complete tape - these are just songs I picked out from it that are more or less good to run to.)

really pathetic (1994)
closer to god - nine inch nails
the upstairs room - the cure
so. central rain - r.e.m.
down in it (shred) - nine inch nails
angst in my pants * - sparks
the night before * - the beatles
spin the bottle * - the juliana hatfield three
save a prayer - duran duran
closer - nine inch nails

(OMG! It's KLOHZ-er, not KLOH-ser!)

Celebrate your independence, y'all!

Friday, July 03, 2009

pathetic.

Reading biographies of great artists is always a humbling experience. It can fill me with jealous rage, of course (I'm a genius, too - those accolades are rightfully MINE!) but mostly I am just fascinated to learn where a person learned what they learned to become who they were and why the public did - or did not - respond to their work.

Especially with the biographies of graphic artists, it is so valuable to learn what they learned, who they emulated, what their inspirations were - what the mold was, exactly, that they broke. And also to appreciate how so much of great artistic success springs from not talent alone, but the nexus of talent and history.

Charles Schulz reimagined the comic strip, using a modern, simple line juxtaposed with deep, emotional sadness. Putting the words of adults into the mouths of children. Knowing, unpretentious, stylish, self-aware. And he became the most successful - by any reasonable account - comic strip artist in history.

But he could not have done that in 2009. He had to start in 1950, and not a day later. Where would such a piece of daily art make such a wide-reaching impact today? He was in thousands of newspapers a day, great many of which no longer exist, with more folding every day. You can become a well-known comic artist today, but without the daily habit of reading the same newspaper, millions of people will never become attached to the same storyline for so long. Not in the funnies, not on TV, not in film, not in novels, nowhere.

Like so many my age and those older than myself, I read PEANUTS a lot. We had so many collections of his strips, and there were the other books, the toys, the TV specials. And like so many my age in particular, as the strip moved into the 80s and 90s (and I moved into my teens and twenties) I stopped reading it. It just seemed too sweet and uncomplicated. And no longer funny.

As a young adult, with a mortgage and a job and a daily paper I read them again, and I learned to appreciate them again. He stayed in the same place, but I had moved. Twice. In the late 90s, when I had no children in my house, there were a large number of PEANUTS strips clipped from the paper and taped to my fridge. Comic strips never motivate me to clip them and put them on my fridge anymore.

I understand there was a bit of controversy when this book came out, that Schulz family members were disappointed that Michaelis presented their patriarch as a less-than-perfect man. But it's hardly a hatchet-job. It makes sense. Happy men rarely make history. Or art.

Distance: 4.25 miles
Temperature: 69º
Weather: cool & overcast, down by the river - PERFECT
pathetic  [puh-THET-ik]

–adjective 1. causing or evoking pity, sympathetic sadness, sorrow, etc.; pitiful; pitiable: a pathetic letter; a pathetic sight.
2. affecting or moving the feelings.
3. pertaining to or caused by the feelings.
4. miserably or contemptibly inadequate: In return for our investment we get a pathetic three percent interest.
Among our crowd, "pathetic" was the worst epithet we could wing. I am sure the first time I read the word it was in Peanuts, or heard it in the Charlie Brown Christmas special. When we said it, it was tinged with contempt - the way Rik on The Young Ones would say it, really nailing each syllable. It was a term reserved not for merely pitiable people, but people who were pitiable because they thought themselves great.

Someone who strives for great things and fails is not pathetic. Someone who likes to give the impression they strive for great things, but don't, they are pathetic.

I quite often feel pathetic.

Back in the day when we made mix tapes (oh my god, the sheer amount of TIME men of my generation spent crafting mix tapes) I created an (unintentional) three year project which I affectionately called The Pathetic Trilogy. In 1993, shortly after staring my first theater company and starting my first marriage, I was feeling ... less than satisfied. That sounds wrong, what I mean is, I was unsure. Unhappy. Anxious. I felt pathetic.

I decided to make a mix tape for myself that contained every song that a) I really really liked that b) made me feel worthless and small. And as I was preparing for this weekend in Athens, site of so many of my crimes, literal and figurative, and as I have been feeling a little unsure these past two days (nothing to be concerned about, oh no) I thought I would put together an edit of those tapes, at least the music with some kind of beat, for running to.

These are songs from that first tape. Their content should surprise no one.

pathetic (1993)
digging in the dirt * - peter gabriel
sanctified - nine inch nails
m - the cure
like the weather - 10,000 maniacs
hard day - george michael
what have i done to deserve this? - pet shop boys ft. dusty springfield
the mayor of simpleton - xtc
bring on the night - the police

Wednesday, July 01, 2009

How I Ran 5 Marathons in 4 Days!

What Might Pengo See at the Fringe?

Abraham Lincoln's Big, Gay Dance Party
BlueRare Productions, San Francisco Playhouse, PlayGround
Writer: Aaron Loeb
Director: Chris Smith
Romance! Murder! Dancing! Honest Abe's hometown puts a teacher on trial for asking "Was Lincoln gay?" in this new comedy of political "values". See the events through the eyes of the prosecution, defense or big city reporter. You decide the order.
2h 15m National San Franciso, CA Comedy Drama
Staycation: Summer Camp(y) Ride the Rollercoaster of Love



Listening to: PODRUNNER Classic - Cruse Control (175 BPM)

Distance: 3.25 miles
Temperature: 60º
Weather: cool & wet
Weight: 155 lbs.

They gave us our performance schedules the other day - with a caveat not to PRINT them on any marketing materials. I don't think the Internet counts, so I am going ahead and announcing ...

AND THEN YOU DIE (How I Ran a Marathon in 26.2 Years)
FringeNYC Performance Schedule!


VENUE #6: The Robert Moss Theater
440 Studios, 440 Lafayette St., 3rd Floor
(between Astor Place/ East 4th St.)

SUBWAY:
N, R, W to 8th St.
6 to Astor Place

WED 8/19 @ 8:45-10:05
THUR 8/20 @ 6:45-8:05
FRI 8/21 @ 2:45-4:05
FRI 8/21 @ 9:00-10:20
SAT 8/22 @ 2:00-3:20

That's right kids - five performances in four days! Kind of exciting, really. And scary. But really, really exciting. AWESOME SPACE! In our last excursion, I was in that legendary "clown car" of a space (thanks, Sepesy) way out West (8th Avenue!) a former walk-down apartment with 40 seats and a dinky stage that would have made this production impossible.

The Robert Moss looks amazing, with a new floor, 68 seats and it's just a tremendous location. This space and schedule are tentative, as anyone who needs their schedule changed will throw everyone else's into flux, so I am really hoping nothing goes wrong.