Showing posts with label parenting. Show all posts
Showing posts with label parenting. Show all posts

Saturday, August 19, 2023

A little part of you inside of me will never die.

This has been a long week. Returning home from Athens, we spent the rest of the day packing and loading the boy's stuff to take him to school. Then we spent a few nights in Cincinnati, to get to know the place a little, and take care of last minute business for the boy (he was otherwise occupied settling in.) Now we're back in Athens for more family occasions.

There's been a lot of driving these past few weeks. I hate that part. It's been aggressive to my thighs. But when it's all over it will just be the two of us. But we've been two before and that was very nice, too.

Distance: 5 miles
Duration: 45:09
Pace: 9:02
Route: Hocking River Bike Path
Temperature: 66°
Climate: sunny & warm
Mood: very good
 
College Run Playlist (1986-1990)
Do You Believe in Shame? - Duran Duran
Need You Tonight - INXS
In the Lowlands - Crowded House
African Dance - Soul II Soul
Miss You Much - Janet Jackson
Beer - Murphy's Law
Shamas-Ud-Doha, Badar-Ud-Doja - Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan
The Prisoner - Squeeze
Birdhouse In Your Soul - They Might Be Giants
Buddy - De La Soul ft. Jungle Brothers & Q-Tip
 
Stretches: yes
Bicycles: 20
Planks: 90 sec.
Water: yes

We have run more this year than in 2021, or in 2019, or since the year 2016. Not what I expected when this year began. We eat less, we drink way less, we exercise more. We feel pretty good.

Breakfast: coffee w/cream
Coffee Break: latte, cranberry nut muffin 
Lunch: popcorn
Dinner: steak, corn on the cob, baked potato (butter, cottage cheese), caesar salad
Alcohol? Old Fashioned (1x)

Man. When was the last time I went four days without a run?

Reading (60 min.): yes

Told our eldest about how I met their mother. So that's where we are now.

Saturday, August 05, 2023

The written word is a lie.

Okay, here's a confession. And a qualification. I do not have a drinking problem. I have  problem with drinking. Alcohol has always given me a big headache. Always. I have often wondered if I have an allergy to the stuff, like an actual allergy. It makes me ill.

But I enjoy it. Thursday night I had two beers. One at eight, anther at ten. Two beers. We watched the show (Step Nine) got in late. Bed by one a.m.? I woke up at five in the morning, headachy and also shivering. I thought maybe I had Covid (I don't have Covid) and anyway it destroyed my morning. I was sick and in pain and couldn't pull it together until mid-afternoon.

Two beers. You think I'm lying. Two beers. This doesn't always happen but it happens often enough. I was talking to our eldest about it, and about my efforts at selective sobriety since early this year (see: March Mildness) and they said, maybe you need to accept that you can't have more than one drink.

They just said that, like that, to their father. It was so simple, and so straightforward and so helpful. And they're right. That is a decision I need to make. I am so proud we have raised such wise and thoughtful children.

Distance: 3.1 miles
Duration: 28:42
Pace: 9:15
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 74°
Climate: overcast & humid
Mood: good
 
Halfway through my run I got a call from James, and I took it. It was like running with a friend. Modern technology is cool sometimes.
 
Stretches: yes
Water: yes

Breakfast: coffee w/cream, fresh strawberry, raspberry, cherry, banana w/yogurt & sunflower seeds
Lunch: Ethiopian leftovers
Snack: almonds
Dinner: vegan “chicken” sandwich
Alcohol? 1/2 pint Guinness 

Baseline: 195 lbs.
Current: 172 lbs. (+1.0)
Goal: 165 lbs.

Okay, this is where I lose it. Bad habits, eating whatever. Let’s keep it together this time.

Tuesday, June 19, 2018

I need a moment to deliberate.

Welcome home.
Long week already, and its only Tuesday. Made a girl cry at camp. I am a terrible human being, and I have no idea what this play is that I am trying to write.

I want to take a nap, but it is six in the evening. So instead I will run.

I need new shoes.

Distance: 3.31 miles
Pace: 8:39
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 76°
Climate: hot & beautiful
Mood: bad

Also, I am a fucking terrible father. I want this day to end.

Stretches: yes

Baseline: 178 lbs.
Today: 163 lbs. (-0-)
Goal: 160 lbs.

What's That Lyric?
Uninvited - Freemasons

Monday, May 04, 2015

I ran to your heart to be near.

 What is making Pengo unhappy today?
  1. doubt
  2. fear of failure
  3. racism
  4. "misrepresentation of fact"
  5. euphemisms
  6. bad parenting
  7. violence
  8. responsibility
  9. Mad Men
  10. lack of focus
  11. cat hair & dust
  12. cancer
Temperature: 68°
Distance: 2.85 miles
Avg Pace: 7.59
Climate: humid and beautiful

As the day becomes the night, Cleveland winter turns directly to summer.

Rehearsals began last night, and I am depressed I will have little time to engage the girl in running. She is an independent soul, she can take this upon herself. I will text her this afternoon for encouragement.

Cat's In The Cradle (2015).

Weight: 160 lbs.
From Goal: -0-

Eating two slices of pizza without gaining a pound is not something to be proud of.

Sunday Alcohol Units: -0-

What's on Daddy's iPhone? 
Pictures of You * - The Cure

Tuesday, April 28, 2015

Nothing's ever tough enough until we hit the road.

Snacking is a thing, we all know this. Gen X aged parents have had it impressed upon them that they must provide snack. We all know it, we all complain about. Those of us who have tried to rise above the garbage to provide something different and healthy are treated to the confused or even suspicious stare of small children when we offer something home baked or otherwise not arriving safely in a factory-fresh wrapper. Anyone who brings water to the game instead of Gatorade is treated like an asshole.

We've read these articles and blog entries, I need not add to those. Just to tell a personal story. We have had the benefit of a wonderful childcare associate for years, named Sarah. Her job is to keep the children safe, to provide oversight. She is not a nanny, it is not her job to correct the children. They do not need correction, anyhow. Much. She follows our lead. My wife reminds me not to give her too much instruction on how the kids are supposed to spend the two hours between the end of school and when we arrive home from work.

But she is, of course, there for when the kids want Snack. Not a snack, like something to nibble on, but Snack, that fourth meal between lunch and dinner. And as our home is often the venue for classmates who are also in Sarah's care, we keep the cupboard stocked with a variety of less-than-horrible offerings.

The problem is, by virtue of their use, they are usually not fresh. Crackers, sometimes chips, even cookies occasionally. There is yogurt in the fridge, and cheese. But they do not grab fruit or vegetables. Plant matter seems complicated to people. Or it's that a small amount of apples to do last very long, and we used to shop once a week.

But we're thinking healthy. I go grocery shopping for one bag of fresh tings maybe three times a week, like people used to do, or still do in large cities. Have we not a large city, with urban grocers? We do. I get more apples and whatever else they want, and also celery and carrots.

My mother used to do this thing, she would cut sticks of celery or carrot, stick them in a short glass of water, and leave them on the kitchen table. She wouldn't draw any additional attention to them, they were just there. We came home from school, we walked by the table, we took and ate the vegetables. Snack accomplished.

Lately, I have attempted to remember to cut up a vegetable and put it in a glass of water and place it in the fridge for Sarah to bring out after school. At the end of that day, that glass is always on the counter and empty.

Temperature: 43°
Distance: 3.36 miles
Avg Pace: 7.35
Climate: bright and brisk

Weight: 160 lbs.
From Goal: -0-

Wii Fit tells me I am NORMAL. My BMI is precisely where someone my age, gender and height should be. The goal now is maintain, to stay this weight and continue this work.

Sunday Alcohol Units: -0-
Monday Alcohol Units: -0-

The weather is irritating. Yesterday, freezing rain. Forget that. Today, just not as warm as I would care for. But tomorrow ... and tomorrow ... and tomorrow. We return to spring.

My head has been unhappy for days. I used to think it was the daily evening libation. And now we know that is not true. It's just my head and the way it is built.

However, pseudoephedrine can be daddy's little helper. My head is now high and clear. Aaahh.

Playlist: Hot Chip Radio

Marathon training begins Monday, June 15.

Monday, March 10, 2014

Running around 'cause I'm filled with fear.

These. That is all.

Temperature: 41°
Distance: 3.25 miles
Weight: 173 lbs.

2011 Playlist
Houdini - Foster the People
Brazil - Eric Bobo & Latin Bitman
Pumped Up Kicks - Foster the People
Run Right Back - The Black Keys
Little Talks - Of Monsters and Men
Sick of You - Cake
Too Many Rappers [New Reactionaries Version] - Beastie Boys ft. Nas

5:30 PM UPDATE: After work, the girl asked to lap the block. She wanted to run two laps, but I think with the idea of going that far she intimidated herself. We ran one with a few walk breaks.

She asked to sprint the last several drives. Sprinting freaks me out, especially on the sidewalk. Too much opportunity for injury.

On our way out (lovely 55° evening!) the boy asked to join us and I had to put him off. He was a little difficult about it, but this is one of those situations where I have found it is better to have all of your attention on one kid. After the girl and I were through, the boy and I ran down to the corner and back.