Thursday, September 12, 2019

So play the resurrector and give the dead some life.

Hello, darkness.
What do you do. What do you do when your heart is no longer in it. When you are tired, and you don't even know why you are tired. When you are sad and entirely angry at the same time. When you are sad that you haven't run in three days, and entirely uninterested in running ever again. When you are so sorry and yet so resentful. When it all seems so pointless, not just running, but absolutely everything. What do you do.

It's not even a question. No one can provide answer so there's no point in even connecting. It's all fucking stupid. I just fucking hate everything because i fucking love everything but none of it matters.

There's no one home and nothing to do. I'm going for a run.

Distance: 9 miles
Duration: 1:18:05
Pace: 8:40
Route: Forest Hill to Heights High to Cain Park and Back
Temperature: 70° → 67°
Climate: cool
Mood: bad
Stretches: no
Water: yes

That was supposed to make me feel better, to energize me and make me feel alive. It didn't.

Baseline: 179.5 lbs.
Today: 167.5 lbs. (+1.5)
Goal: 160 lbs.

What's That Lyric?
Check the Rhime - A Tribe Called Quest

Monday, September 09, 2019

... and then I die.

Night of pain, and a sore day. I fell asleep on my left arm and when I woke up it was a world of hurt. So, of course, I thought I was having a heart attack. (I was not having a heart attack.)

So, recovery run it is.

Distance: 3.25 miles
Duration: 28:18
Pace: 8:42
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 60°
Climate: cool & humid
Mood: decent
Stretches: yes
Water: yes

In the run up to Y2K, there was a theory that the date 9/9/99 might also cause havoc as "9999" was a shutdown code in older computer systems.

This did not happen. January 1, 2000 also arrived without incident, and nothing bad has happened ever since.

To commemorate the "little y2k" I made a mix tape. This is what I was into twenty years ago today.

Now it's a Spotify playlists. Enjoy!

(Missing: "Cinnabar" and "Oops!" by Tipsy, "Comfy Club" by Pnu Riff.)

Baseline: 179.5 lbs.
Today: 166 lbs.
Goal: 160 lbs.

Evening run. Gotta run in the evening so you can write in the morning.

New shoes, Under Armour. Like running on clouds.

What's That Lyric?
The Sky Is Broken - Moby

Sunday, September 08, 2019

Endorphins make me cry.


Pre-Run Thoughts: The schedule demands eighteen miles, which I feel entirely unprepared for but I did complete sixteen miles two weeks ago, so anything is possible. Running to Dead Man's Curve and back (which is, my friends, eighteen miles) is not something I want to do, it feels arduous and I am not in the headspace for that.

Instead, I made plans to run across town, to mother's house. The last time I attempted this it was also my father's house, alas. But the city was different then, the Cultural Gardens not as grand, fewer people living in the city, fewer other runners. Edgewater not yet the Metropark which thousands flock to. What will I see on a warm Sunday afternoon, heading from one side of town to the other?

Next year!
Last night was Pandemonium, a scene I wrote premiered, but I left shortly after the dance party kicked into gear. I was asleep before midnight and just kept sleeping until I was finished. This morning I have eaten carbs, a bagel and later some buttery pasta. I have energy, if not the strength I was hoping for.

Still have no idea what I am going to listen to.

Distance: 18 miles
Duration: 2:42:47
Pace: 9:02
Route: Rec Center to Mom's House
Temperature: 68° → 65°
Climate: overcast & cool w/light rain
Mood: all right
Stretches: yes
Water: yes
Energy snacks: Gatorade Prime Energy Chews

Post-Run Realities: Perfect day for it, I'll tell you that. And a lot of beautiful everything to look at. I can barely remember the first half, maybe because it is so familiar. I will say, running along the lake on a cloudy while Annie Lennox sings Whiter Shade of Pale was a truly introspective experience and one I enjoyed a great deal.

It was the home opener at Browns Stadium (we were spanked by the Titans 43-13) and I arrived just as everyone was leaving, which was a thrill, dodging the crowds. Detroit Avenue from the river to West 65th is such a different experience than when I first did it in 2006, and Edgewater was also extremely pleasant.

But fall is fast approaching, there were a lot of people at the beach, but not the crush of people you would find on a beautiful summer's day.

The major win for the day was my hydration and energy consumption, as I was able to spread out energy chews and hit water fountains roughly four or five miles apart, the longest stretches with hydration were from the East 55th Marina to Lower Edgewater, and from Upper Edgewater to mom's house. But I never felt dehydrated or depleted.

Amusingly, I was on Lake Avenue, the homestretch, when Carrie called my phone. When I answered she yelled "WE'RE BEHIND YOU!" and I turned and saw she and her friend David running up the street. They'd been trying to catch up when they'd seen me several blocks back, but even after running sixteen miles I run faster than the average human.

Stopping to talk to them, however, made my legs freeze up and the final two miles were hard going. Alas. But I did finish strong, about a half mile short of mom's house, which was good because it meant I finished walking, and didn't immediately sit down.

And I listened to 90s music the entire way.

What's that mondegreen?
"The dolphins make me cry."
- "Only Wanna Be With You" by Hootie & the Blowfish

Week Thirteen Total: 32.5 miles
Total To Date: 304.25 miles

Friday, September 06, 2019

I'll run the gun for you (and so much more.)

Today I have run as many times as I had last year (two of my posts this year were about recovery.) Every additional run until December 31st is a bonus.

Yet. My training schedule is not perfect. I continue to run, but not as often nor as hard as the schedule dictates. Should have run nine miles yesterday, but when I got into bed on Wednesday night my head was spinning. I don't know what that was about.

I may know what that was about. The truth is, I have been eating garbage for days. In the rehearsal hall we have large bags of candy and chips and I will spend several hours abstaining, but the moment I have a little snack it's off to the fucking races.

Seriously, I have no idea how much processed sugar I have eaten in the past week, but my tongue has been damaged by it. Yesterday I had terrible indigestion. I have to get my shit together or this is going to be a miserable race.

When I go out this morning, the plan is to run for one hour. Because they need me back at home by 6:30 am. I have no idea which direction I am headed.

Before I go, I remind my self of one thing. I really like running.

Distance: 6.5 miles
Duration: 59:18
Pace: 8:56
Route: Heights High-Monticello Middle Loop
Temperature: 55°
Climate: cool & clear
Mood: all right
Stretches: yes
Water: yes

Good run, back in time for the house to wake. Long sleeves today, which was fine. Steady run, not too fast but a good pace.

What's That Lyric?
I'll Tumble 4 Ya - Culture Club

Baseline: 179.5 lbs.
Today: 163.5* lbs. (-4.5)
Goal: 160 lbs.

*This cannot be accurate.

Wednesday, September 04, 2019

The Debate

Podcast morning, listening to The West Wing Weekly. This week they are discussing "The Debate," a live episode from season seven. Just thinking of the upcoming political season brought up my heart rate.

But I just realized something. In spite of everything, I feel better when there is something we need to gain in stead of fearing what we might lose. We've already lost so much, and there's so much worth fighting for.

Distance: 4 miles
Duration: 35:31
Pace: 8:52
Route: Cain Park Loop
Temperature: 72°
Climate: humid!
Mood: good
Stretches: yes
Water: yes

Baseline: 179.5 lbs.
Today: 167 lbs. (+0.5)
Goal: 160 lbs.

The holiday weekend left me packed with processed beef. That, and all the snacks in the rehearsal hall. I hope I am able to get control of this before the Halloween-Thanksgiving-Christmas-New Year's Food Death Spiral.

Monday, September 02, 2019

So you run down to the safety of the town.

Perfect day, cool, after the rains. But oh, how stiff, how weak, at least starting out. Lots of runners on the path this holiday morning. Middle age, students, the entire women's track team.

By the final mile I was warmed up, broke eight minutes. Pet Shop Boys, I thank you.

Distance: 4 miles
Duration: 36:17
Pace: 9:04
Route: Hocking River Bike Path
Temperature: 66°
Climate: over cast & cool
Mood: all right
Stretches: yes
Water: no, coffee

Ohio University Playlist (1986 - 1990)
Lonesome For a Place I Know - Everything But the Girl
Panic - The Smiths
I Get a Kick Out of You - Jungle Brothers
Lunar Bay - Frankie Goes to Hollywood
I Got It Goin' On - Tone-Loc
Don't Believe the Hype - Public Enemy
Life With the Lions - Billy Bragg
Ladies First - Queen Latifah ft. Monie Love
Like the Weather - 10,000 Maniacs
Opportunities (Let's Make Lots of Money) - Pet Shop Boys

Sunday, September 01, 2019

You glorify the past when the future dries up.

First week of rehearsal is always a busy week, and the days are even more full with activate, teenage children. Cross-training and short runs fall by the wayside in favor of weekend rehearsal, orchestra parent meetings, and the desire to be present as children and spouse prepares for a day in school.

Meantime I have my own business, writing or preparing applications. We enter September, move into fall. And travel to Athens. My business has kept me from here since Christmas, I think. Memorial Day I had Lear rehearsal, my wife and son came to town to see my nephew (now three and a half months old) while the girl and I were in New York.

But we are here. A cool morning, after the rains. And it's another long one. On the drive down I said I had to run twelve miles today and my wife said she just can't comprehend that. Running that far, it's simply an impossible thing she could never physically accomplish.

Maybe not, but there's a first time for everything.

Distance: 12 miles
Duration: 1:47:41
Pace: 8:58
Route: Hocking River Bike Path
Temperature: 70°
Climate: overcast & cool
Mood: all right
Stretches: yes
Water stops: plenty
Snack: banana

Good day on the bike path, feeling strong. Not winded, not sore, not slow. Weather was perfect, and there were several water fountains along the way. Got to use a bathroom. So it was relaxed, not arduous, no worries. Listened to a playlist of songs from my college days. I have tried, throughout the years, to keep up with popular music. I haven't turned against it, but I have found nostalgia to be soothing. I mean, right?

O.U. Playlist (1986-1990)
God Part II - U2
La Bamba * - Los Lobos
Girlfriend In a Coma - The Smiths
Waiting For the Great Leap Forward - Billy Bragg
Rhymin' On the Funk - Digital Underground
Christopher Tracy's Parade - Prince
Channel Z - The B-52's
Wild Thing - Tone-Loc
Globe of Frogs - Robyn Hitchcock & the Egyptians
I Hope You're Happy Now - Elvis Costello & the Attractions
Domino * - Genesis
Something to Save - George Michael
The Cactus - 3rd Bass
Kiss (Aon Mix) - The Art of Noise ft. Tom Jones
Don't Disturb the Groove - The System
Driving - Everything But the Girl
Merely a Man - XTC
World In My Eyes - Depeche Mode
Route 66 - Depeche Mode
Elephants & Flowers - Prince
Free Fallin' * - Tom Petty
Summer of Love - The B-52's
Blood & Roses - The Smithereens
Twisting - They Might Be Giants
Things That Make You Go Hmmmm ... - C+C Music Factory
The Sensual World - Kate Bush
Buffalo Stance - Neneh Cherry

Week Twelve Total: 23.5 miles
Total To Date: 271.75 miles