Parents are children.

Ladies and gentlemen ... 55 Playlists for 55 Years.

2021 Playlist

Strong Feelings - Dry Cleaning

hold yourself. - Tune-Yards

MONTERO (Call Me By Yur Name) - Lil Nas X

Rome - Dessa

Rabbit Hole - Cherry Glazerr

Vertigo - Alice Merton

How Not to Drown - CHVRCHES ft. Robert Smith

Back in Ohio - Lucero

This new "featuring guest vocals by Robert Smith" thing is a wonderful trip.

Distance: 3.1 miles
Duration: 29:21
Pace: 9:28
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 73°
Climate: overcast, light rain & humid
Mood: highly anxious
Weight: 179 lbs. (-0-)

Rain on Juneteenth. I cannot keep up with all that is happening right now, family, work, school, relationships, the nation. The amount of Sertraline I take is practically a microdose, but it does the job.

Intake
Breakfast: coffee (2x)
Lunch: rich vegetable stir fry w/rice

Treat: Coca-Cola

Snack: sunbutter & jelly sandwich & milk
Dinner: mac & cheese & salad, shandy (1x)

Alcohol: Old Fashioned

Also, fizzy water (2x)

You'd like to be in the race.

Also: This happened.

Rainy and cool. I am a little sleepy this morning. Take a nap -- or a run?

Part of the reason I am tired is because I am running every day. Another because family keeps me up later than necessary. Also, I have not been eating before I run. That last is a thing I should take care of.

Distance: 3.1 miles
Duration: 29:48
Pace: 9:37
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 68°
Climate: overcast w/light rain
Mood: squirrely
Weight: 179 lbs. (-1.0)

Intake
Breakfast: Frosted Mini-wheats (serving size!) w/strawberries & banana, coffee (2x)
Lunch: N/A

Treat: Hot chocolate (with shaved chocolate & whipped cream!!!)

Snack: cheese straws
Dinner: vegan cheesesteak, fried cauliflower

Also, fizzy water (2x)

Alcohol: rum & Coke (2x)

We need to talk about Lemonade Mouth.

2011 Playlist

Breakthrough - Lemonade Mouth

Sail - AWOLNATION

Na Na Nothing - Mike Doughty

Ok - Beastie Boys

Blue Tip - The Cars

Somebody That I Used to Know - Gotye ft. Kimbra

Stereo Hearts - Gym Class Heroes ft. Adam Levine

Make Some Noise - Beastie Boys

Rolling In the Deep - Adele

Finish strong, Adele.

Always been a shoe made for the city.

A day off yesterday, a cool day. This morning it will heat up again. I was supposed to have a crown replaced this AM, but it's not back from the lab. So, a run it is!

My attitude is so much better now than it was last year. Maybe that's because the president isn't a serial villain and we aren't in the middle of a pandemic.

I mean, we're no longer in the middle... right?

Distance: 3.1 miles
Duration: 29:30
Pace: 9:30
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 70°
Climate: sunny & bright
Mood: good!
Weight: 180 lbs. (-2.5)

What a difference a break makes! Lovely summer run.

Wednesday Intake
Breakfast: coffee (2x),  fresh fruit & low-fat yogurt
Lunch: baked beans & corn torillas
Dinner: broccoli quiche & salad

Also, fizzy water (1x)

Alcohol: beer (2x)

Thursday Intake
Breakfast: coffee (2x)
Lunch: pesto pasta w/broccoli & cauliflower

Snack: a serving size of almonds & dried cranberries, beer (1x)
Dinner: TBA

Alocohol: Strawberry Smash cocktail (summer!)

Also, fizzy water (2x)

2001 Playlist

Cigarettes & Chocolate Milk (Reprise) - Rufus Wainwright

Beautiful Day - U2

Last Nite - The Strokes

Lady Marmalade - Christina Aguilera, Lil' Kim,Mya, Pink

Packt Like Sardines in a Crushd Tin Box - Radiohead

Breathe - Telepopmusik ft. Angela McCluskey

Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger - Daft Punk

Hash Pipe - Weezer

We're never gonna survive, unless ...

Summer is here, this is a cool break in the weather. Need to resume upper body exercises. But I am glad to be breathing well.

Distance: 3.1 miles
Duration: 31:30
Pace: 10:09
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 66°
Climate: partly cloudy & cool
Mood: all right
Weight: 182.5 lbs. (-0.5)

Lovely weather, but ugh. My feet are lead. I'm just very tired, not enough good sleep. I should take a day off, a good day off. A day of rest. I know I didn't run over the weekend, but we did spend a lot of Saturday and Sunday outdoors, working in the yard and then having the party..

Intake
Breakfast: coffee (2x), heap of fresh fruit & low-fat yogurt
Lunch: leftover vegan business

Treat: Coca-cola
Dinner: pesto pasta salad with brocolli, cauliflower on a bed of greens

Also, fizzy water (2x)

Take it easy on the Coke, bro.

1991 Playlist

Visions of You - Jah Wobble's Invaders of the Heart ft. Sinéad O'Connor

Tom's Diner - DNA ft. Suzanne Vega

Now That We Found Love - Heavy D & the Boys ft. Aaron Hall

Jughead - Prince & the New Power Generation

Groovy Train - The Fall

Groove Is in the Heart - Deee-Lite

The Choice is Yours - Black Sheep

Crazy- Seal

God. What an amazing time for music. What a strange time to be a young adult.

She didn't have to run.

Oh, my. Big party last night. Drove my brother to the airport this morning at 4:30 AM. I felt wonky as hell. What a day.

Distance: 3.1 miles
Duration: 31:29
Pace: 10:09
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 68°
Climate: light rain & sun
Mood: good
Weight: 183 lbs. (+2.0)

Feeling wobbly. But it was raining at first, and I was like, oh hell. But I went out anyway, and the rain stopped and the sun came out and I am exhaisted and it was delightful.

Saturday Intake
Breakfast: coffee (2x), everything bagle w/cream cheese
Lunch: slice of cheese pizza

Afternoon: beer (2x)
Dinner: Three-cup Tofu and Veggies,Daikon Cakes, Curried Cauliflower Bites, Dango

Evening: beer

1981 Playlist

Pull Up to the Bumper - Grace Jones

Another One Bites the Dust - Queen

MyGirl (Gone, Gone, Gone) - Chilliwack

Stars On 45 - Stars On 45

Primary - The Cure

Girls On Film (Night Version) - Duran Duran

Talk Talk - Talk Talk

Demolition Man - Grace Jones

We need to talk about Stars On 45.

Sunday Intake
Breakfast: coffee (2x), bagel w.cream cheese, scrambled eggs w/tomato & onion & cheese
Lunch: reuben, coca-cola
Dinner: assorted but modest party items, including two savory carb things, a tiny dessert

Alcohol: beer (2x)

Really! Two beers at a six hour party.

Monday Intake
Breakfast: coffee, latte
Lunch: fatayer, baba w/pita

Snack: fruit w/yogurt
Dinner: pasta & faux meat sauce, raw veg w/yogut dip, beer (1x)

Also, lemonade w/fizzy water (2x)

Buddha, is he where it's at?

Moving to the finale, six more year runs before we reach 2021. What should be included?

Distance: 3.1 miles
Duration: 30:39
Pace: 9:53
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 72°
Climate: sunny & humid
Mood: good
Weight: 181 lbs. (-0-)

No. Do not have two cocktails before bed. I do not care if they are White Russians. I do not care if you are watching the finale of Chernobyl.

Intake
Breakfast: coffee (2x)
Lunch: baba w/pita, fatayer

Happy Hour: Eliot Ness (1x)
Dinner: cheese pizza, IPA (1x)

Also, fizzy water (2x)

I know James Murphy name checks Gil Scott Heron in Losing My Edge, and I have listened to The Revolution Will Not Be Televised before ... BUT I didn't realize until today that  Losing My Edge is an homage to The Revolution Will Not Be Televised.   

1971 Playlist

When the Levee Breaks - Led Zeppelin

Won't Get Foopled Again - The Who

Superstar - Murray Head & The Trinidad Singers

Gotta Get Up * - Harry Nilsson

The Revolution Will Not Be Televised - Gil Scott Heron

Brown Sugar - The Rolling Stones

Take Me Home, Country Road * - John Denver

There's a new day dawning.

Man Who Has It All

Day off. Trivia gives me stress, because I'm not doing well. I need to get out and run, before the heat, before the storm.

Also, I seem to have done something to my external keyboard. So that sucks.

Distance: 5.5 miles
Duration: 52:35
Pace: 9:33
Route: Forest Hill/Cain Park Loop
Temperature: 72°
Climate: sunny & bright
Mood: good!
Weight: 181 lbs. (-1.0)

Here's the thing, I have a drawer full of pants waiting for me when I hit 175.

Wednesday Intake
Breakfast: coffee (1x)
Lunch: salad w/cottage cheese

Snack: apple, carrot
Dinner: beanie weenies

Also, fizzy water (4x), beer (1x)

No! I did not expect to run five miles today. Just ... felt right. And the music was really good.

Thursday Intake
Breakfast: coffee (1x)
Lunch: cool cilantro pesto pasta with carrots & toasted almonds

Snack: "Middle Eastern" pizza
Dinner: beanie weenies

Also, fizzy water (2x), Caucasian (2x)

1992 Playlist

Jimmy James - The Beastie Boys

Kiko and the Lavender Moon - Los Lobos

My Love (You're Never Gonna Get It) - En Vogue

High - The Cure

Television the Drug of a Nation - Disposable Heroes of Hiphoprisy

The King of Wishful Thinking - Go West

I'm Too Sexy - Right Said Fred

Steam - Peter Gabriel

Push Th' Little Daisies - Ween

My Name is Prince - Prince & the New Power Generation

I'd Die Without You* - PM Dawn

Sleeping Sattelite - Tasmin Archer

Rooming House on Venice Beach - Jonathan Richman

You're always on the run now.

We are reading Annie Zileski's addition to the 33 1/3 series, examining the creation and cultural impact of the Duran Duran album Rio. They are a terribly underrated band, and Rio is a seriously good record.

Distance: 3.5 miles
Duration: 32:50
Pace: 9:22
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 73°
Climate: sunny & bright
Mood: good
Weight: 182 lbs. (-0-)

Huh. Too many carbs.

Intake
Breakfast: coffee (2x)
Lunch: big salad

Afternoon treat: Lemon Hefewizen

Snack: mandarin, tiny cupcake

Dinner: cool cilantro pesto pasta with carrots & toasted almonds

Also, fizzy water (2x), Caucasian (1x)

Every single song on this playlist is a banger. It's interesting, even a song like Save a Prayer, which seems slow, has a good bpm. It isn't a driving rhythm, but it moves. I have been culling favorites from a list just before I go out thinking, if that pops up, it will drag me down. 

1982 Playlist

Save a Prayer - Duran Duran

Forget Me Nots - Patrice Rushen

It's Nearly Africa - XTC

Radio Silence - Thomas Dolby

Beat It - Michael Jackson

Desperate But Not Serious - Adam Ant

Gloria - Laura Branigan

Let's Pretend We're Married - Prince & the Revolution

Man. Sweaty.

Lost my train of thought here.

Tonight I need to whip up some Caucasians.

School is out. For summer for him, forever for them. My morning obligations are to myself. Writing. Answering trivia questions. And running before the sun comes out.

Distance: 3.1 miles
Duration: 28:58
Pace: 9:20
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 75°
Climate: overcast & humid
Mood: anxious
Weight: 181.5 lbs. (+0.5)

Since I started logging what I eat, I have dropped eight pounds. That's eight pounds of snacks. I'm eating fine. I'm not hungry. It's salty snacks and all the water that holds.

Intake
Breakfast: coffee (3x)
Lunch: spaghetti with mushroom & faux meat sauce

Snack: Tiny cupcake, beer (1x)
Dinner: mac & cheese (1c.), beer (1x)

Also, fizzy water (2x)

Resisting snacks has become a thing. You had dinner ... and that's it, man. Watched my son eat half a package of Chips Ahoy while we watched The Big Lebowski. Was I tempted? I was not.

Seriously, those things taste like dust. Know what else tastes like dust? 

Running after me. Ha!

2002 Playlist

Heavy Soup - Cornershop

Fit But You Know It - The Streets

Soul Bossanova - Skeewiff

Starry Eyed Surprise - Paul Oakenfold ft. Shifty Shellshock & Crazy Town

Heavy Metal Drummer - Wilco

Daft Punk Is Playing at My House - LCD Soundsystem 

The Man Comes Around - Johnny Cash

The course of a lifetime runs.

Still, I have these occasional pains in the area of my chest. Not my heart, exactly, but sometimes. The doctor asks, does exertion cause pain? And no, it absolutely does not. I mean, it really does not. I run, and I run fast, and I can overheat, or lose my breath, but it's never pain. It never hurts.

It remains to appear to be a side-effect of the medication I take for anxiety. Yes, remains to appear to be so. That is when these pains began. I wonder if leaving the medication will eliminate the pain. Knowing me, I wouldn't notice.

Distance: 3.1 miles
Duration: 30:11
Pace: 9:44
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 82°
Climate: overcast & hot
Mood: okay?
Weight: 181 lbs. (-1.0)

Intake
Breakfast: coffee (1x)
Lunch: spaghetti with mushroom & faux meat sauce
Dinner: ham & cheese sandwich with a pickle, beer (1x)

Also, fizzy water (2x), Manhattan (1x)

1972 Playlist

Doctor My Eyes - Jackson Browne

Root Down (And Get It) Live - Jimmy Smith

Go All the Way - The Raspberries

I Saw the Light - Todd Rundgren

Mother and Child Reunion - Paul Simon

Bang a Gong (Get It On) - T. Rex

Last Night (I Didn't Get To Sleep At All) - The 5th Dimension

I feel like I've been run right through the mill.

Those boots.

We did it, we sent a child through public school. I am exhausted.

Distance: 3.1 miles
Duration: 29:02
Pace: 9:21
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 75°
Climate: sunny, hot and AWESOME
Mood: excellent
Weight: 182 lbs. (-2.0)

Intake
Breakfast: coffee (2x) 
Lunch: shrimp tempura roll

Treat: Chocolate covered Oreo (1)

Snack: apple
Dinner: air fried brussels sprouts, pasta with mushroom & veggie meat tomator sauce, beer (1x)

Also, fizzy water (3x)

Boy chose the decade. I was surprised, he hates contemporary music. But seeing as 2012 was almost a decade ago, it is ancient to him. It was a banger. We went hot and fast. He gets his second dose today, no idea what he will feel like tomorrow.

Now we're running.

2012 Playlist

Youth Without Youth - Metric

Drive By - Train

Starships - Nicki Minaj

We Found Love - Calvin Harris ft. Rihanna

Bubblegum Bitch - MARINA

I'm Shakin' - Jack White

Boozophilia - Low Cut Connie

Party Rock Anthem - LMFAO

Oblivion - Grimes

He says he attracts bugs. He is a bit allergic to mosquito bites, they affect him terribly, big swollen welts. Then there's the spider bite he got in NC once, when he was a child. Traumatic, scary and also made him ill for a shot period. And it just hurt. No, he did not get super powers.

Running through the woods makes him anxious, he just feels the itch all over. I can sympathize with that part. That was me, too, at his age. Skin was an enemy. My acne was much worse at his age than his currently is. Cold comofrt.

Weather permitting.

No, you do not "need to have a drink" to watch Chernobyl.

Distance: 3.1 miles 
Duration: 29:18
Pace: 9:27
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 63°
Climate: overcast & humid
Mood: very good
Weight: 184 lbs. (+1.0)

Tonight our first living child graduates from high school. It was to be last night, but postponed earlier this week due to scheduled heavy weather. Good call. Last night was rainy and cool. Tonight is supposed to be sunny and hot.

And oh, it will be hot, all right.

Thursday Intake
Breakfast: coffee (2x) 
Lunch: tuna salad sandwich, carrot

Snack: banana, mandarin
Dinner: cheese omelette & salad, beer (1x)

Also, fizzy water (2 x)

I can exhibit self-control. Snacking is often a sign of boredom. Keep your head down and keep reading.

Friday Intake
Breakfast: coffee (3x)
Lunch: sunbutter & preserves sandwich w/grapes & milk
Dinner: bourbon cocktail, calamari, fried chicken sandwich, plantain chips, grazing various other items

(We had dinner out. It was graduation. Shut up.)

2013 Playlist

Right Action - Franz Ferdinand

The Walker - Fitz & The Tantrums

I Will Wait - Mumford & Sons

Little Talks - Monsters & Men

The Wire - HAIM

Work Friend - Britney Spears

Doin' it Right - Daft Punk ft. Panda Bear

Global Running Day (2021)

Yes, today is Global Running Day! Have you run today? Do you plan to run? Take a moment to complete this form and share your achievement!

My Run Today:
Distance: 3.1 miles
Duration: 30:39
Pace: 9:53
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 68°
Climate:  overcast & humid
Mood: good
Weight: 183 lbs. (-0-)

Good run, my shins are feeling the daily routine, however. May skip tomorrow. Supposed to storm all day, anyhow.

This is a photo from the (former) National Running Day, ten years ago today. Those are the twins who live next door, I can always remember their ages because they are in between my kids. So, seventeen now.

I love these kids. They are much taller today.

Intake:
Breakfast: coffee (2x)
Lunch: egg salad on sourdough, chips

Snack: manadarins (2x)
Dinner: grillec cheese & tomato soup, beer (1x)

Dessert: one scoop, chocolate chocolate chip ice cream

Also, fizzy water (1x)

1973 Playlist

Paris 1919 - John Cale

Nineteen Hundred and Eighty-Five - Paul McCartney & Wings

Bad, Bad Leory Brown - Jim Croce

Jungle Lion - Lee "Scratch" Perry & the Upsetters

Brother Louie - Stories

Do It Again - Steely Dan

Blockbuster - The Sweet

Free Ride - The Edgar Winter Group

You don't smoke. Don't even want to.

What's up, chumps? Home alone for a couple days. I mean, not alone. Me and the boy.

Now, can we not have a cheeseburger today?

Distance: 3.1 miles
Duration: 29:38
Pace: 9:33
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 66°
Climate: partly cloudy, nice sun
Mood: all right
Weight: 183 lbs. (-2.0)

Running freer, stronger. Take care, don't get injured.

Also, I quit smoking twenty years ago this month.

Intake:
Breakfast: coffee (2x)
Lunch: , ramen w/fried egg, mandarin
Dinner: bbq ribs, assorted sides, beer (1x)

Also, fizzy water (3x)

1993 Playlisti

Stay (Faraway, so Close!) - U2

Get Off This - Cracker

Deeper and Deeper - Madonna

Regret - New Order

7 - Prince & The New Power Generation

Tribal Dance - 2 Unlimited

Boom! Shake the Room - Jazzy Jeff & the Fresh Prince

My father would have liked this song. Maybe he did.

Get started. Get stupid.

Keep going.

Last year I ran twenty-six times in June. And I hurt myself. I don't even remember that. My hip was in pain. I think that was the result of running every single day. It was a mania, I guess. I was then, as now, trying to slim down to a manageable size. I was 185 lbs. in June. I was able to drop another five pounds, but then put it all back on by the holidays.

Running every day, I didn't write about it. Too busy? In quarantine? I had nothing to say? It was a difficult, depressing time.

Not that tings are rosy and bright. But they are better. I was exposed to lots of hillbillies this weekend. Really testing the limits of this vaccine.

I have been in a creative frenzy this past year, too. The writing, the schoolwork, all the Zoom productions. But I'd like to make exercise something that is part of my head, what I think about, and not just something I do and get over with, to try not to think about. Some of my favorite moomenst I am thinking about running. Or actually running.

Distance: 4 miles
Duration: 37:54
Pace: 9:27
Route: Hocking River Bike Path
Temperature: 67°
Climate: sunny & nice
Mood: good, you know?

My current mental exercise in delayed gratification. I will be eating X later, so I will not eat Y right now. If I did this on Noob (or whatever it's called) I could find out exactly what the calories are in X vs. Y, too. For now, I choose to be merely mindful.

It's not really a diet. I am not eating different. Just less grazing. 

Intake:
Breakfast: coffee (2x) 
Lunch: General Tso's Tofu

Snack: deviled eggs, tapanade w/crackers

Dinner: cheeseburger, onion rings, milkshake

Also, Manhattan (1x)

Okay, holiday's over.

2003 Playlist

Transatlanticism - Death Cab for Cutie

Crazy In Love  - Beyoncé ft. Jay-Z

Toxic - Britney Spears

Let's Get It Started (Spike Mix) - Black Eyed Peas

We Will Become Silhouettes - Postal Service

Seven Nation Army - White Stripes

Move Your Feet - Junior Senior

Hey Ya! - OutKast

Emerge - Fischerspooner

The year 2003 was a big year for me, aurally. We had discovered iTunes. I was listening to Radio K. And then there was the girl. All the music that emerged from being a new father, the father of a living child. It was a rebirth. The latest rebirth.

I see another hurdle approaching.

The Smiling Skull Salloon

Couple of days at he Wolf Homestead. Afternoon run by the river, it was totally beautiful. After all this time, however, the fact that people can't get their shit togther and stay out of each other's way as they pass.

It was brisk, and strong. That's what a couple days off gets me.

Distance: 4 miles
Duration: 37:33
Pace: 9:23
Route: Hocking River Bike Path
Temperature: 63°
Climate: sunny & beautiful
Mood: good

When I get into a groove, of not overeating, it makes having even a light snack of junk food impossible. No small bowl of chips. Just none. Reach for the fruit, the veg, or just drink more water.

Friday Intake: 
Breakfast: coffee (3x) oatmeal w/raisins, butter, brown sugar, cream
Lunch: spaghetti & sauce, broccoli & cauliflower w/butter

Snack: apple, handful of Runts
Dinner: beans & cornbread

Dessert: 1 scoop chocolate chocolate chip ice cream.

Also, fizzy water (2x), beer (1x)

Saturday Intake: 
Breakfast: coffee (3x)
Lunch: beans & cornbread, cornbread with butter & honey

Snack: banana
Dinner: Whopper, onion rings, Coke

Also, Old Fashioned

Also, fizzy water (1x)

Well, that's one way I discover that I have gone too many days without a run. But seriously, putting this down keeps me from messing around. Gotta tell you, having a meal from MacDonalds the night before can fill me up for an entire day. I have eaten, but I was just not hungry.

Sunday Intake: 
Breakfast: coffee (3x), Edmund Fitzgerald (1x)
Lunch: odd pieces of fruit, Eliot Ness (1x)

Snack: General Tso's Tofu w/broccoli

Dinner: grilled cheeseburger w/works, thundercake, Eliot Ness (1x)

Meantime, two beers during the day? Sure, fuck you, I'm on vacation.

The mid-day Chinese dish was a hoeowrk assignment for the boy. It was delicious.

1983 Playlist

The Cutter - Echo & the Bunnymen

Lies (Remix) - The Thompson Twins

Fascination (Extended Remix) - Human League

Safety Dance - Men Without Hats

Sweet Dreams (Are Made of This) - Eurythmics

Maniac - Michael Sembello

Wanna Be Startin' Somethin' - Michael Jackson

This Must Be the Place - Talking Heads

The pounding of my heart, it beats so strong.

Last night was wonderful and horrible. The girl was receiving a corporate-sponsored scholarship, one she had applied and interviewed for. She received cash, prizes, was celebrated for all her hard work. And she has done such hard work.

By the end of the event she was finding it hard to breathe. The caterer had included an unusual ingredient in the pesto - peanuts. Peanuts do not belong in pesto. Pine nuts and often other tree nuts can go into pesto, not peanuts. And there was no allergy warning, no indication of this special, secret ingredient.

I remember those parents who would make a stink that their children couldn't bring peanut butter to school, or didn't impress upon their children to wash their grubby little mitts before visiting their friends at the nut-free table. Join me in the emergency room after my daughter has jabbed herself with her epi-pen on the white-knuckled drive.

She's fine. She leaves for university in a few months. I am nervous and afraid, and so is she.

Distance: 3.5 miles
Duration: 34:28
Pace: 9:51
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 54°
Climate: sunny & cool
Mood: okay
Weight: 185 lbs. (-1.0)

Four days of running in a row. Cooler today. Chose not to write morning pages, instead to do housework, make lunches, breakfast, for the family, all of whom slept late. I got five and a half hours of sleep last night, and that was more than anyone.

Intake:
Breakfast: cream of wheat (1c), with raisins, alomonds, butter & cream, coffee (2x)

Snack: carrot sticks
Lunch: noodle salad & green soup

Snack: apple
Dinner: pasta & sauce w/steamed brocolli & cauliflower, butter

Also, beer (1x), fizzy water (2x)

Let's try breakfast. Somestimes fasting keeps me from being hungry. Isn't that weird? But this morning I made cream of wheat, so. And I have lost five pounds since we began.

UPDATE: Around 10:30 AM, I am hungry again. This is what I am talking about. 

1984 Playlist

Take Me With U - Prince & the Revolution

Locomotion - OMD

You Take Me Up - Thompson Twins

Tenderness - General Public

Erotic City - Prince

Legs - ZZ Top

I Want You Back - The HoodooGurus

It's My Life - Talk Talk

Don't Let Go - Wang Chung

Eucch. These almonds are two years out of date. Picked thme up at a race sometime.

We know what it means to be alive.

Sip it like it's hot.

Muggy run. And this is where it gets hard, controlling my intake, I mean. Eat good things, not bad things.

Lots of homework, work work, and work work work. But I am sick of this chair. 

Got to hit the books.

Distance: 3.1 miles
Duration: 31:07
Pace: 10:02
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 73°
Climate: overcast, breezy & humid
Mood: all right?
Weight: 186 lbs. (-2.0)

Took three days to work off last weekend's pizza binge. Keep going.

Intake: 

Breakfast: coffee w/ cream (2x)
Lunch: noodle salad

Snack: apple, grapes
Dinner: pretzel crusted chicken breast, braised red cabbage & string beans, beer (1)

Also, fizzy water (2x)

2004 Playlist

Future Sightings - I Am the World Trade Center

Mr. Brightside - The Killers

Drop It Like It's Hot- Snoop Dogg ft. Pharrell Williams

First Waver Intact - Secret Machines

Musciology - Prince

One Call Away - Chingy

(Reach Up For the) Sunrise - Duran Duran

Taking care of business.

Can run? Must run. 

Saw the doctor yesterday and he saw me. It would appear I am in good health. It would also appear, from all the bather I gave him, that I may need to resume talk therapy. Most of my fear of death (as I see it, this is not a diagonsis) is mental not physical. I am not at risk for a heart attack.

Having said that, I need more "good" cholesterol, and less "bad" cholesterol. If I could eat that soup my wife made last night, or the salad the night before, on a more regular basis, I would be in excellent health. She is amazing.

Distance: 3.1 miles
Duration: 31:39
Pace: 10:12
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 73°
Climate: sunny & warm
Mood: determined
Weight: 188 lbs. (-1.5)

We will record our intake. The wife suggests an app she's using to record her intake. Says it gives her a clear picture of her diet. Me, I am concerned that might make me depressed - that it won't matter that I know what is in my diet, I will keep eating it.

I'll post it here. Make it public. Because shame works.

Intake:

Breakfast: coffee w/cream (2x)
Lunch: green soup w/soda bread & butter

Snack: apple, banana

Dinner: Noodle salad w/fried tofu

Also, fizzy water (3x) & one beer

I fasted all day so that I would have clean labs. And it wasn't a problem. I can do that, not eat, when necessary. I don't need to fast, necessarily ... though after the weekend's binge it didn't hurt. 

1974 Playlist

Goodbye Yellow Brick Road - Elton John

TSOP (The Sound of Philadelphia) - MFSB ft. the Three Degrees

Lady Marmalade - LaBelle

Boogie Down - Eddie Kendricks

Waterloo - ABBA

Hooked on a Feeling - Blue Swede

Takin' Care of Business - Bachman-Turner Overdrive

Living For the City - Stevie Wonder

Come and Get Your Love - Redbone

My pace will be slower when I am running every day, and when it is hot. And that's all right. Better to run slower every day than fast once a week.

The playlist makes a difference, too. The 70s can be slower paced. Groovy, but slower paced. As I am creating Sotify playlists, I am choosing not to include some tunes I used to because they just aren't fast enough to inspire.

Challenge what the future holds.

What a difference a weekend makes. The boy has a birthday party Saturday night, which means "New York" pizzas from Guys, bags of Doritos, cheese balls and a variety of soda pop. So that night, and Sunday, it was all junk food, all day.

This, after all the parents gathered to take pictures of our kids at the art museum before Prom. I tried to avoid photos, but there's a very nice one of me, and she and her. And my shirt is very snug. It was embarrassing to me. I am trying to be my own shape, but I just eat shit.

I even have boobs now.

And I wanted to exercise, I did. But I kept putting it off, or trying to engage the boy. By early Sunday night, I was tired. Junk food tired, you know? At least the wife made an excellent salad for dinner. Those have everything I need.

Distance: 3.1 miles
Duration: 31:00
Pace: 9:59
Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 63°
Climate: overcast & humid
Mood: anxious
Weight: 189.5 lbs. (+2.5)

Christ, almighty.

Much cooler today. And after a couple days off, I'm like, nah. It's funny, 63° and overcast seems chilly like 63° and sunny definitely does not.

Things that are giving me anxiety today: Social messaging for CSU, my Early American Poetry class, the sheer amount of junk food I consumed the past two days, what I look like in that photograph, racial inequity in the workplace, certain professional issues and certain personal relationships, making plans to scatter ashes, losing hard at trivia. It's a lot.

1994 Playlist

Fantastic Voyage - Coolio

Closer - Nine Inch Nails

You Gotta Be - Des'ree

When I Come Around - Green Day

Ruiner - Nine Inch Nails

Shoop - Salt-N-Pepa

Sure Shot - Beastie Boys

Gin N Juice - Snoop Dogg ft. Daz Dillinger

What a messed up year 1994 was. I hear songs I haven't heard in a while -- while running -- and I am reminded of how angry I was, how unhappy I was. Also, how active I was, how much was going on.

And how bad I was. I was awful. And miserable. Self-pitying, self-loathing, self-aggrandizing. All self, no other. No excuses, sometimes it is good to remember how it happened, and music helps me do that.